You are doing this because you love your piggies and are putting their needs before yours!
HUGS
It is very upsetting an heart-breaking for you and you may find that you go through a period of grieving at the beginning.
Hywel was offered a space at TEAS when I struggled to get on top of his recurring and persistent jaw abscess. I did not feel like I was a failure for giving him that chance for optimal care and vet access after my local vets proved unable to cope with it. I was feeling blessed that he was given this wonderful opportunity when a space became available.
In 2013 I had to let my Caron go to another loving home with a very similar setup and lifestyle after she was badly bullied in the wake of a leadership takeover which she lost out in, lost a lot of weight because of it (of course I had her vet checked!) and sadly failed to get on with any other of my groups. The rescue I had adopted her from was kept informed and was given the chance to homecheck the new home, which passed with flying colours.
It was very upsetting me, not least because I was initially shot at by some people until they realised that I had not done this lightly and that Caron was indeed much happier in her new home where her quirks, airs and sneaky tricks were tolerated by her new, much more relaxed group. I was able to stay in contact and visit occasionally (she wasn't local); she lived very happily for another one and a half years and found the love of her live in the end.
Caron always reacted to hearing my voice on the phone and was super relaxed when having a cuddle with me during my visits, so I did have the direct confirmation from her that I had not mistreated her or failed her in any way and that the move had not broken our special bond.
The move did however come at an emotional price for me, but I would pay it again anytime for the sake of one of my piggies' wellbeing! Their happiness and wellbeing come before my own needs and desires and a long way before my pride.
It is the same with you. You have tried your best, now is the time to move them on where they can be looked after better. You will never stop to love them and they will always remain your babies. They won't forget you, either, and you will always be their mummy!
