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Bambi died on wednesday

Butterflykelly

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Hi I am posting again because I have lost another one of my guinea pigs. I thought I'd try coming here because I am feeling like I want to kill myself because its my fault cos I got paranoid he was ill and cos of my actions I ended up killing him. I was worried about him for a while a few months ago I took him to the vet twice because he was drinking a lot of water and I thought he was losing weight at the first appointment they didn't do anything said he was fine he weighed 890 grams when I'm sure he used to weigh nearer a kilo and I took him for a second one incase they were missing something and I'd given him some recovery food to see if that would help him put on weight which he eat on his own he loved it and at the second app he weighed about 950 grams and she said cos of him drinking lots of water she'd give me antibiotics to try but if it didn't work it could be his kidneys and there would be nothing they could do. I didn't take him back after that but he always continued to keep drinking a lot of water I tried not to worry cos I thought as long as he's eating and seems OK. On the morning before he died I think I got paranoid he looked to skinny and when I held him he was laying on his side which he didn't normally do so that worried me as well and he didnt seem that interested when I fed him some lettuce but that morning he had eat babyleaf lettuce and Been banging at the bars for it. I think I got paranoid he wasn't right cos of him looking skinning and when he was out he didn't seem quite right. I phoned the vets just to ask advice and they said bring him in it's better to get him checked. His weight was 888 grams so not that bad and they couldn't find anything wrong with him but when I got him home I opened his carrier door to run around and he just stayed in it I tried to give a biscuit he didn't want it I then got him out after a while and cuddled him then put him on the floor with one of my other piggies he lived with sometimes since she lost her son. I fed them pepper and Kale he didn't eat it. Normally he would run around and eat. I then decided to get him in with his mum and sister who he would normally chase around and he just went under the house and didn't acknowledge them even though his mum went and laid in front of him near the house. I then gave them hay he didn't eat it so I thought I need to syringe feed some food I did this at 10.30pm and 2.30 am in the morning it was a battle to get him to take it but I tried to give him about 7 ml each time cos I thought if he wasn't eating that was what I was supposed to do. I put him back with his mum and sister they were out free roaming that night and when I woke at 7.30 am he had died. When I buried him in my dad's garden I noticed the food was still in his mouth. I feel like I killed him because I got paranoid he was ill and did the wrong thing I should of just left him alone and kept an eye on him. I'm sorry for the long post I just can't live with myself he was only 3 I've lost 4 piggies within 7 months one from a tumour in the tummy one from bloat one was 7 and I put him to sleep cos he stopped eating and now bambi cos of me panicking he was ill when he wasn't I just can't cope anymore. I have 8 other piggies and I'm scared I'm going to kill them too. Bambi was the most precious little boy ever I miss him so much and I hate he's gone because his mummy got paranoid and did the wrong thing. Sorry again for long post
 
So sorry for your loss. I don't think that you did anything wrong. Please don't be so hard on yourself. You absolutely did the right thing feeding him. He must've had an illness that couldn't mend. They are so good at hiding illnesses because they are prey animals.
 
I am very sorry for your loss. It sounds as though you did nothing wrong. Please be gentle with yourself as you grieve. It’s a natural part of the grieving process to question everything you did or did not do. Please try to remember the happy times with him and treasure his memory.
 
From what I've understood here, you noticed your pig wasn't acting himself so took him to the vet, then stepped in with support feeding when you spotted he wasn't eating. Sounds like a perfect response to me!

If the food was still in his mouth it will be because of what he was poorly with, not because of something you did, and you had to step in with feeding as not having any food intake kills pigs fast.

It's a normal part of grieving to feel guilty for something or to pick apart all the things you could have better (in your opinion). Acknowledge those thoughts but please do be kind to yourself, particularly as it sounds like you did all you should have done.
 
Sorry for your loss. Please be gentle with yourself as you grieve. It sounds like you are a wonderful, caring owner who did everything they could for a piggy they clearly loved. Sleep tight Bambi x
 
I’m so sorry you lost a am I, but please don’t blame yourself :hug: It sounds to me that you did everything right, just what I would have done. Guinea pigs hide they illnesses as they are prey animals and instinctively don’t want to show their weakness and I think Bambi probably had something wrong with him

Sleep tight little Bambi 🌈
 
Sorry for your loss :(

Guinea pigs always have some food in their mouths. When vets want to take a look at the back teeth they have to flush any food out so they can see. So I really don’t think you caused his passing by syringe feeding.

It sounds like you did all you could - noticing he was poorly, getting vet care and stepping in with support feeding.

Hugs.
 
I’m so sorry you have lost Bambi. I agree with everyone else. It doesn’t sound like you have anything to feel guilty about. Take care ❤️
 
So sorry for your loss.
From what you have written you did everything possible for Bambi.
Be gentle with yourself and allow yourself time to grieve.
Holding you in my heart ♥️
 
-You did all you could for Bambi, please take comfort in that - it was just his time to go. You loved him and it is very hard to say goodbye to a loved piggy, so take care of yourself as you grieve.
Sleep well Bambi 🌈
 
So sorry for your loss. Bambi was gorgeous and it is only natural to question your actions in this situation as I know only too well with our own recent loss. You did everything you could with the situation you were faced with and please stop trying to second guess your actions. Guinea Pigs seem to be quite fragile creatures who can easily hide pain and hurt. We can only do our best with what we’re confronted with. You did everything you could for your beloved Bambi.
Rest Peacefully Beautiful Boy.x
 
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