andythepirate
New Born Pup
Only this 17 ashley my senior piggy passed, only a few days later my final pig Bj crossed the rainbow bridge at the emergency vet. This has been the hardest week I’ve had in a very long time, I did allow myself to grieve my first pigs passing to make sure I was there for my remaining pig, I got her new treats and syringes just in case she stopped eating. I spoiled her rotten the last days of her life it killed me to see her get sick and so depressed after losing her sister. I genuinely had so much hope she would be able to pull through her grief but my babies just missed eachother far too much. All of my babies are together again, Andy, Betty Sue, Ashely and Bj I hope you all are happy and popcorning wherever you are! I miss giving you all lovings and hearing your squeaks fill the room. It’s lonely here, this is my first time without a piggy since 2017 I’ve never felt more lonely. I can’t stop replaying the moment bj left us, I was talking to the emergency vet on what decision to make that was best for bj, she was getting fluids and was on a warming blanket, the vet rushed out of the room and came back with my baby in her arms saying “she made the decision for us” my heart completely sank. I don’t know when I will recover, I have the cage covered I’m too broken to get rid of it and just can’t look at it either. It’s so empty here without you baby girl it’s so empty without you both fighting over the water bottle or stealing eachother treats and fighting with eachother (verbally and sometimes lil bites) I miss giving you ear rubs I know how they were you’re favorite, I loved watching your eyes close and we both just knew you could be safe. When I got home from dropping you off for cremation I just wanted to say hi my girl but there was no one to say it too anymore. Its been so hard today, to not get you veggies or give you a treat,my routine is all out of shape. You piggies have me a purpose everyday. I miss you all so much. I’m sorry I couldn’t save you I’m sorry I couldn’t do more. You are my angels I’m beyond grateful to be your mama. Thank you for letting me love you and keep you safe.
