Sending many hugs
@Claire W anxiety is a terrible thing, like big black clouds of dread and panic hanging about all the time
I know you've spoken about this before but sorry if I can't remember exactly, have you got any medication or CBT to help you? Or even some mindfulness exercises you come up with yourself...
I take a beta-blocker medicine for my high blood pressure and my anxiety, which helps quite a bit, but I often wake up in a panic at 3am terrified for no reason or imagining all sorts of awful things might have happened or worried to distraction about things that I said or did the day before, or things that I need to do the next day... so I made up this thing where I actively visualise capybaras, every bad thought gets an imaginary capybara eating a carrot or climbing into bed with me. Its daft but it works for me. I am sending you some of my imaginary capybaras to sit on your bad thoughts, but do keep pushing for some therapy or medication that helps too if you arent getting the help you need x