Hollie85
New Born Pup
Hi guys, hope everyone is well.
As I sit here a week and a half after having my two boars neutured waiting for the one that survived to come out of the vets after starting to squeal when he poos, I wish so badly I could turn back the clocks and have not done it!
Many errors on my part I feel which is very hard to come to terms with and forgive myself for and begin to think about enjoying everyday life again.
I'm now extremely paranoid I'm going to lose the other one, I'm not sure I will get through that.
I was wondering if my of you have had any similar experiences with neuturing or surgery/treatment?
I'm feeling pretty alone in this situation.

As I sit here a week and a half after having my two boars neutured waiting for the one that survived to come out of the vets after starting to squeal when he poos, I wish so badly I could turn back the clocks and have not done it!
Many errors on my part I feel which is very hard to come to terms with and forgive myself for and begin to think about enjoying everyday life again.
I'm now extremely paranoid I'm going to lose the other one, I'm not sure I will get through that.
I was wondering if my of you have had any similar experiences with neuturing or surgery/treatment?
I'm feeling pretty alone in this situation.
