So many emotions! So little time!

[lilmisscavy]

Hi everyone,

I went on my Facebook page earlier and on there I 'Like' this page (which many of you may do too!): https://www.facebook.com/guineapiginfo, and really was not prepared to see my little boys, Robin, Todd and Oliver on the RSPCA page made me feel sick and embarrassed knowing I couldn't cope looking after them :0 but I am so glad they are on the road to finding new homes!

At the same time, one of the cages was sold. Someone local to me contacted me and luckily she lives just round the corner from my mum so after mum brought my brother back from work, she took it down and it was someone we actually know who bought it! She's getting a couple of guinea-pigs for her son so I've given her a ton of info about them and told her if she needs any help, I'm just 2 miles away! So that's £10 saved away for donation so far

Lastly... *drum roll* I have the little 4-5 month old, neutered boar reserved for me in the rescue I mentioned in my thread about finding Jasper a companion! I've told them I won't be able to get to them, so I have to wait to see if they can get someone to home- check as far down as I am from them, and also bring him to me. He was in a trio of boars and I knew he would end up on his own. They have other guinea-pigs there but haven't yet tried boar-dating with him, I did recommend it if I couldn't have him, so I guess if they can't bring him down to me, they will try with one of the other boars there, or sows even. Although.. fingers crossed, they can bring him down here and he and Jasper get on

Also, the money I raise from the cages and hutches, I'll be sending to this rescue because I'd like to help a local one

 

[Amanda1801]

"made me feel sick and embarrassed knowing I couldn't cope looking after them"

Then why oh why are you rehoming more animals, after signing your existing ones over to a rescue?

 

[lilmisscavy]

"made me feel sick and embarrassed knowing I couldn't cope looking after them"

Then why oh why are you rehoming more animals, after signing your existing ones over to a rescue?

If you really must know, although I shouldn't have to explain myself to anyone, I wasn't coping mentally with having so many. I suffer badly with depression and I try and put a brave face on but really I'd rather go and jump underneath a bus!

I couldn't cope with having to clean so many cages so often, when I couldn't mentally motivate myself to. I have poor sleep patterns which means I'm usually up half the night so most of the day is gone when I'm awake, which is when I should be cleaning cages.

I was worried about the boars being on their own and wanted them to have cage-mates, although knowing I couldn't take any more on, having them taken by someone who could get them companions was the only option I had.

The older girl group of mine could have stayed, and so could the younger one, I'd in-fact bought the stuff to make them a C&C cage originally, but the day it came I'd already made my mind up.

And lastly, the main reason why I couldn't cope. My dad. He's never liked me having animals, he's never liked the animals. He would put me down about them, comment about the noise, the smell, the mess, having to even SEE them. He has just commented NOW walking through the living room because I haven't yet had the time today to tidy up the mess behind me from when I was sorting my cages out to be sold!

He and I had a huge argument the day tillythepig came to collect them and that was the final straw for me. He had commented about something about my pigs and I completely lost it. I take my anger out on my door as it's the only thing I don't mind damaging, so I ended up throwing a chair at the door breaking it (it's already broken where I've thrown it before) and punching my door, to which my dad ran up to my room, crashed into my room and started shouting at me. I lifted up my chair as protection as I was worried he would hit me, but then he started whacking his chest telling me to 'hit him' (I didn't).

I was screaming at him to get out my room (I don't like anyone in my room) and he wouldn't, so I was beginning to get panicked and started hyperventilating because I couldn't calm down.

Before he left my room, he said he wanted all the animals gone from my room and downstairs (at the time, my youngest sow herd and my two rabbits were behind me in the dining room). So I thought if tillythepig can collect them straight away, I'm taking that offer.

Now I've explained all that, d'you mind me if I just have a break from those who think they know me, think they can get one up on me and make me crack under this already unnecessarily stressful life I have to endure? Perhaps? I've already had a nervous breakdown and I'm only 24, don't lead me to another.

I'm leaving this forum for a while. Sorry that has really upset me and I didn't need that tonight.

And just in- case anyone is concerned! I can't take the little boar because they don't have any home-checkers in my area! So you can all take a sigh of relief now!

 

[Amanda1801]

Your mental health is none of my business. Plenty of people, including myself, have mental health issues (mine are more akin to yours than you can imagine).

My concern is that you have handed over several animals to a rescue already at bursting point, only to attempt to take on another animal, despite the fact that you have previously said that the other boars got on with Jasper. Surely with a bit of help if necessary, you could have bonded one of these with him?

If your dad is that bad, why get more?

In addition, the lengths that TillyThePig has gone to to accommodate you with the recent huge influxes of rescue pigs is beyond his "duties". The fact that you have decided not to donate the proceeds of the cage sales to him/the RSPCA is nothing short of disgusting. If nothing else, it would go directly into ensuring that your pigs are well cared for. It's all done entirely entirely out of donations and the volunteers own pockets.

If you DO decide to get another pig, please make sure the rescue are aware of all the facts, including this recent signing over of animals. This will enable them to be able to help you in the future, should you require it for any reason.

 

[hazeyg]

I'm really sorry to hear about your mental difficulties. Also the strain between your father and yourself.

Please try and remember that this is a public forum where people come and go and say what they will and its difficult to try and put things in perspective. The majority of folk you never see in your daily life, why let people get to you? The world if full of opinions, some upset me so anger me but you have to respect we're all different.

My honest opinion is slow down. Please get your self a little stronger before attempting to rehome again. Have you been to your GP? You say your 24, do you work at all, is there any chance you could save up and get a little place of your own? I know its maybe not what you want to hear but animals really do sense fear and they dont like unhappy homes. I'm sure your little piggie will be ok for a short while alone with some extra TLC if its a means to an end.

Please go have some piggy cuddles and remember, stay positive, think rationally and do whats best for the little one- even if that means rehoming him as well until you are strong enough. Or do you have a friend that could look after him until your better. Sometimes you have to out yourself first, Ive laways believed you have to love yourself before you can love others.