Starting to get so stressed!

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gothchick1515

Hiya everyone, i need to rant away to get this off my chest or i might explode in tears!

I don't have any exams in my course (BTEC national Diploma in health studies) but its all assignments, i am a fairly organised person and hate upsetting people so i do all teh work and get it in on time as best i can.

its moderation in 2 weeks! and i have placement too! but that isnt why I'm stressed! i have just 4 assignments left to do then I'm free but i dont understand them and i wont see my lecturer till there due! also i spent so long on that sociology assignment (the one all you helped me with thanks again!) gave it to her pleased as punch that it was done and i was so proud of it! she took a quick flick through then said nah it aint right and practically through it back at me with no explanation as to what i needed to do to improve it, upset and angry i didnt go in the last day before my holiday and told them i had a dentist appointment!

also i have 2 assignments due on thursday and one that is half done i cant find and the assignment sheet for the other i cant find also! but what Pi**e* me of most is that i had them this morning and my mother has moved them! >:( so even though I'm in the mood to do them i CANT!

also my dads in a vile mood cos he just found out about eddie and doesnt nessercarily mind but did say he didnt like being made a fool of and thats fair enough

My sister Charlotte is constantly crying! and i understand shes in pain but its starting to be like nails on a chalkboard >:(

i have no money and no chance of a job in sight! have now got a pile of nearly 15 rejection letters all saying ' we would like someone with experience!' how the hell can i get experience if they dont give me the job!

I am beginning to get bored with driving lessons cos i dont see it going anywhere and I'm just annoyed with it all! i havent even been taught to park and i started them in april!

I have booked my 18th birthday party but i wanna loose weight for it nad its almost impossible cos I'm good with food but i cant exercise without falling over with a asthma attack!

all my old friends dont want to go to my 18th! which is really winding me up! even Lloyd hasnt got back to me about it or talked to me since MY 16TH BIRTHDAY! (a year ago) though sometimes i have the odd text but only if I'm lucky!

there are mice everywhere and it makes me tetchy because i have a genuine phobia of them! i cry if I'm near them I'm literally terrified!

I have work experience soon and though i told them i was a size 20 i keep worrying i wont fit in my uniform! which is a vile pea green trousers and a white tunic with pea green trim!

none of my friends want to go in to work with the children from chernobyl even though it means so much to me!

and everyone keeps talking about how much they hate their life and want to go jump off a cliff and whenever they talk about suicide i go mad because i know what it does to people and families because of my uncle >:( then when i think of mu uncle i get angry which makes me a not very nice person!

the one and i mean the only thing that is good is that i hated tuesdays as i had to be in till 5 but as i handed my last health and safety assignment in today she dissmissed me and now she doesnt need to see me again so thats more time at home and yes more time on TGPF! lol

sorry about me going off on one i bet my problems are barely problems compared to some other things going on in the world and with some of you lossing your darling piggies :'( but i had to rant to someone in someway and this way nobody sees me :'( sorry again
 

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First of all, big (((hugs)) to you!

Rant away hun, rant away. Always better to get things off your chest and bottle them up as it can drag you down badly and just make you more upset and depressed. I'm often grateful to forums as I can post and no one can judge me really.

i have no money and no chance of a job in sight! have now got a pile of nearly 15 rejection letters all saying ' we would like someone with experience!' how the hell can i get experience if they dont give me the job!
Tell me about it! >:( I'm in the same boat (which isn't good, I don't like being on boats), as no one wants to take me on as I have no experinece, but how can I get experience if no one will give it to me? So, I totally and utterly sympathesise!

I was talking to someone (an adult) and I was saying about my old friends and she told me something I'd tell you, you can move on your old friends, after all you have new college friends, and that's ok. I know how it feels though, and I sympathesise (I can't spell today) as I know how much it hurts after getting pretty much hung up on the past due to my life at present.

Regarding your driving, I know how you feel, as I sometimes feel I'm getting nowhere, but don't worry if you haven't started parking yet, I didn't for a while either, is you driving instructer into safe driving (not like your not!) rather than go for your test type of thing as mine is.

To me you are a caring person who cares for others, and sees outside yourself and cares deeply for others (ie, those children you mentioned) which is excellent, don't worry that none of your friends are doing it.

Also, I was advised to speak to someone about how I was feeling, perhaps you could do the same?

I'd also apologise for bringing myself into this reply, but I wanted to show understanding. I must sound so selfish which certainly wasn't my interntion! :-\

Clare xxxxxx

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I have counsellin for ages but it didnt help me so i gave up but thanks, My mum suggesested voluteering in a charity shop to get that all important experience but and I'm not trying to be a meanie or anything but i wont get paid and i need the £! But my next placement is in a pharmacy where i have till and stacking dutys too so i might get tht experience i need there ofi might but its a BIG might get a weekend job there! as for my old friends, i have 2 colleges friends and had about 20 mates from school and Lloyd well he tells me hes my Fiance which I'm beginning to have second thoughts about lol but its his loss I'm used to being on my own lol thanks and dont apologise lol x
 

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No, I didn't mean a counseller. I just couldn't get my words right, hence the thousands of edits.

Clare x
 
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Oh lol, i talk to my friends but they dont really understand, my friends speak fairly broken english and with me ranting they get rather lost in it all lol x
 

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Oh Verity, my lovey! Big, massive, gigantic hugs to you darling!

I can see why you're so stressed love! If you ever want to chat or just let off steam, you know how to get hold of me. (even email me lovey)

You're not alone, we're your friends

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Yeah! you should all come to my 18th lol would be such a laugh lol x
 
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LOL! a holiday in portsmouth and in FEB you make me laugh hehe! we shall see, my mum is usually in charge of all teh guests so 90% will be her friends ive never met but i cant complain shes said she'll get me a car ;D if i get near the list i will just write TGPF then anyone can come lmao x
 

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Verity, I have only just seen this post. I am so sorry you are that unhappy. But you are among friends here.

If you have depression, as opposed to being depressed about things that have happened to you, then please go to the Dr.I have been on anti-deps for ages and they have really helped.

It is true what Clare (I think it was ) said about moving on and finding new friends. I only see one of my friends from school/ college. It hurts at the time, but later you realise they weren't that interesting anyway and as you get older and specialise in what you want for a career etc you meet people with similar interests. Just because you went to school with someone doesn't mean they will be like you in any other way.

My friends have always been older then me and I have found them to be much nicer.

I know you're a lovely kind girl, so don't think badly of yourself.

As for the uniform, so bloody what? It sounds disgusting anyway. If it doesn't fit, tell them their clothes are inadequate and you are being discriminated against ;D

If you want to talk more, please email me xx
 
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Lol! they are disgustin ill take a pic and show you all hehe, I'm not really feeling depressed because i do no what that feels like I'm just more stressed like I'm gonna explode from all the work etc, my friends frm school where so nice to me when i was sad so i dont really wanna completely loose contact with them though i can see it being hard, unless they go into nursing etc though if they had planned on that there would be more of them in my group (I'm the only ALNS student in our whole Health studies group) lol x
 
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Feeling better than yesterday today, have found hte missing work so just have to finish them.
Have one more day till the weekend and yet another annoying lesson! i still cant reverse GRRR!
I then have 4 days left till work experience!

i have another maths exam (AON not GCSE) on tues at 10:30 but college isnt starting till 12 well at least my lesson doesnt start till then so I'm going to revise alot for that exam because I'm fed up of failing.

i have been in the garden and seen little Eddie popcorning and chatting away to his Gramps Zubin who Just sitts there eating grass doesnt even stand to do it! Lazy or what but it made me laugh and smile so i gave him a huggle but he seemed annoyed becaue i did it and took him away from his Lazy buddy so i put him back, where he popcorned in a full circle around Zubin making me laugh because Zubin looked so dizzy lol which cheered me up! they are like little rays of sunshine in our lives arnt they>? x
 
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So sorry to hear this Verity.

Big hugs to you, i am here anytime if you want to chat.

Take care
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