you poor thing after trying so very hard for Budd, you obviously got very close to him , I know exactly how you feel in march I lost my darling Bear he had his leg removed but died, I tried everything going to save him losing his leg and got so close to him, it devastated me I ended up ill over it all so know you must be feeling really rough, I still have 34 pigs but losing Bear was a bad time, just think though along with Bear Budd will be popcorning with Peter Gurney, you ahve to think things like that as it gives you comfort, God bless Budd and chin up you,
Bears my avator as well