Hi again!
This has been so awesome to read. Thank you all! Now it’s been a few days and reading back on how I was feeling looks so foreign, but at the time it felt so real. Classic sign of anxiety for me!
Luckily Ive always been artistic and crafty, and learned to channel my anxiety into tedious (and fun!) arts and crafts. When I was a teenager it was beading, intricate woven bracelets and tiny detailed paintings. Now I knit, sew, and make things out of leather. All that, and then I do some “prepping” (except I'm not a crazy end times person) organizing our food stash, canning, and GARDENING! I'm obsessed with the allotments you guys have in the UK. My home garden isn’t too shabby and Ive been renting a plot at a local farm for extra growing space.
One of my good friends just experienced anxiety for the first time in her late 30s. It literally put her in the hospital. So I guess decades of experience is helpful.