I decided to leave last week because I felt I couldn't 'match up' to others on here at looking after my pets. I don't know now though.
I'd had words with my mum about my money situation (we found out I just needed to renew my medical certificate rolleyes) and I said I'd find them all new homes or contact the RSPCA for help, but I stopped myself.
My mum and I took him to the vet on Friday but the vet said if he's still eating and drinking and he's still alert, they wouldn't recommend just putting him to sleep because he's not showing signs of 'suffering' if he's still wanting to eat and drink, apart from his weight loss and blood in his pee, but he referred me to the rodent vet near us in Boston. Mum called them for me yesterday afternoon and the earliest we could get him there was Tuesday because my mum has a full day tomorrow, I can't actually remember why, and today they're not open. The other reason mum said Tuesday was because my brother had been asked to work that day, and he works in Boston, and it'll be just before he finishes. We did get a reply from Vedra in Cambridgeshire, but mum felt it was too far for her to go straight after work.
It's made me realise I have to set up a bank account for my pets and just put in half the money I get each fortnight, or even take the money out and put it somewhere safe in my room because I don't want this happening again. Yes he went peacefully, but I could have had him examined and taken blood tests etc to find out what was wrong with him.
I have very mixed emotions right now. I got up to have a wee early this morning, about 3-4am, and I noticed Jasper was sat outside the bridge, on the other side of the cage, which he never does, he always sits beside Harvey, but I was way too tired to think about it too much so went back to bed. Got up about half 9 and saw him still sat there and thought it was odd, looked under the bridge and saw Harvey laid down asleep and started talking to him and Jasper, then tapped on the side of the cage and no movement, and I cried a little then, was shaking a little too, gave him a little stroke on his head (just to make sure as well) and text my girlfriend to let her know, then called my mum and told her to cancel the appointment because he'd gone, although I couldn't get the words out at first, I just talked nonsense to her for 10 minutes. Now I'm just relaxed about it, I always cry a little at first and panic but then I calm down.
I went to take him out the cage and Jasper came over and put his head on Harvey's back. He's never come over to me like that before and it was like he wasn't ready to say goodbye to him, he was asking for a few minutes longer with his 'big brother'. So I got them out together just now and as I always do with my pets, I wrapped Harvey up in some kitchen roll and put him in a box, just so I know he's comfortable, and Jasper was sat beside him the whole time.
Now I've got to wait til my dad's home from work so he can help me bury him.
(although I'm sure Harvey secretly enjoyed having a pamper :p)
