yyoung-thanks for your comment. I nearly left a comment for you in your mouse thread to say that I think I understand how you feel now, but I was a little too upset yesterday, so thanks for commenting for me! you know I think its the desperate effort we put in to try and keep our animals with us and the tragic way they both died in our hands that has made this even harder to deal with, I only had two short tragically desperate days to go through with bert and you had to go through it for a lot longer so my hat goes off to you! Your mousie was a little sweetie and I'm so glad you decided to adopt three others, he has left his legacy with them!
It helps to know I'm not the only one going through this. I've had a hard day today at work and have been desperately trying to keep myself busy as possible. It has been difficult to make others understand the effect this has had on me because I have found it hard to believe and understand myself. I mostly can't believe the actual physical effect this has had, I feel sick to the stomach and perhaps because I am so used to daily cuddles and guinea pig lap naps with bert and also because he was in my arms or next to me in bed(my poor boyfriend on valentines!) for pretty much two solid days I now physically ache to hold him!
I'm mainly struggling to deal with the other two, I am finding it difficult to go near their cage because it is too weird and horrible without bert in it. It just seems empty. And seeing louie upsets me too because he is quite clearly pining for bert. Ernie is his usual nonplussed self.
Sorry for all my waffling/pouring heart out posts, for my first thread on the forum this is very depressing isn't it!
