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Teenage Guinea Pig
So, this thread isn't about piggys. The guys are pretty happy: I'm invalid at cage cleaning-day!
My neck has killed me for years. Muscle pains, migraines etc. My hubby use to massage the worst pain away, but then I can't take it anymore. I just hate massage. I know I really need to seek someone professional, but I really can't deal with having a strange person touch me. When my hubby massages me the pain gets to intense after awhile.
So, I had a pretty rough year. One year ago I woke up at the ICU after four weeks in medical coma. My first thought was all this people who helped me during my beautysleep. That hunted me for months. Now I can accept it is what it is, but... Do I want to go to a doctor of any kind?
No. I just can't manage myself to let someone look at my back. Ofc the coma did what it did to my body and my body has been working very hard with re-learning a lots of stuff and now my BACK is worse then ever. The neck pain is down under the shoulders. Sometimes I come home from work and have to spend hours talking to the toilet becuse of intensive pain.
But - this intensive feeling of disgust when people I don't know touches me has been sience forever. It's not ICU-related.
I get it. I have to seek help. So please, brace me up! People doesn't really get my "phobia" so if someone has the same problem please open up

I was thinking of a beautiful selfie I took at the hospital, but... I don't want to scare you! So, you'll get the handsome trio instead (when they still was a trio).
My neck has killed me for years. Muscle pains, migraines etc. My hubby use to massage the worst pain away, but then I can't take it anymore. I just hate massage. I know I really need to seek someone professional, but I really can't deal with having a strange person touch me. When my hubby massages me the pain gets to intense after awhile.
So, I had a pretty rough year. One year ago I woke up at the ICU after four weeks in medical coma. My first thought was all this people who helped me during my beautysleep. That hunted me for months. Now I can accept it is what it is, but... Do I want to go to a doctor of any kind?
No. I just can't manage myself to let someone look at my back. Ofc the coma did what it did to my body and my body has been working very hard with re-learning a lots of stuff and now my BACK is worse then ever. The neck pain is down under the shoulders. Sometimes I come home from work and have to spend hours talking to the toilet becuse of intensive pain.
But - this intensive feeling of disgust when people I don't know touches me has been sience forever. It's not ICU-related.
I get it. I have to seek help. So please, brace me up! People doesn't really get my "phobia" so if someone has the same problem please open up


I was thinking of a beautiful selfie I took at the hospital, but... I don't want to scare you! So, you'll get the handsome trio instead (when they still was a trio).