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This is my first time posting as I have never known about the site but I am happy to have found it to be able to talk about my little man Cena.

I took in Cena when he was a baby that could fit into one of my hands. I fell in love immediately. The first thing I noticed about him was his crazy hair that only got crazier as he aged. Cena was with me for 4 years and 3 months before passing away last Monday. Cena was a one person guinea pig. I was his and he was mine. No one else could touch him without getting bit or making his teeth chatter.

Cena was the last of my guinea pigs so my home is now painfully quiet and empty. The guilt of losing him keeps me awake at night. I can’t help but torture myself with the what ifs. I just hope he knows how much I tried to keep him alive. I hope he knows how much he was loved.

I wanted to write this and share his photos so others can see how wonderful he truly was.

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Cena's pig costume for Halloween.

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What a beautiful pig, very unique hair! He will definitely have known how much he was loved and cared for by you. So sorry x
 
Hi and welcome!

I am sorry that you have lost your gorgeous peru cross! Cena looks he was very much a big pigsonality!

Please be aware that it is very normal to have feelings of acute guilt or failure when losing a beloved piggy; they tend to be the stronger the closer the bond you have. It is not because you have failed Cena in any way; it is just the onset of the grieving process and an expression of your love and deep sense of responsibility towards those in your care. If it comes after a desperate battle and some sleepless nights, you have to also factor in the very physical hangover that you feel when your adrenalin is running out some time later and that makes feel very blue indeed! We all go through this in some form or other whenever a piggy of ours dies. :(

Unfortunately, there is no shortcut for the grieving process; it is as strong as our bond was. Love and grieving are the two sides of the same coin. Take your time to grieve.

If it helps you, start a diary in which you write down your emotions, but also any memory snippets that involve Cena. After a while you will hopefully find that your feelings are gradually changing but also just how much of Cena is still there for you in your precious recordings, not be lost and always there for you. ;)
However, if you find it impossible to move on after a while and if your loss prevents you from getting on with your sleep and daily life, please contact a pet bereavement line that is manned by specially trained volunteers that are there to listen to you but also to help you develop constructive strategies of coping with your loss. Many countries have got some kind of service. It has helped several forum members in the past.
Here is a list of available services for the UK: SupportLine - Problems: Pet Bereavement: Advice, support and information
 
I'm so sorry for your loss. ((HUGS)) to you. He was beautiful boy!
 
I am so sorry for your loss of such a gorgeous piggy, I really am! I can completely understand how you feel because I found it really tough when I lost my fudge in April last year and honestly I think about him every single day. His photo is the wallpaper on my phone and I would never in my life change it because I would feel like I was forgetting him. I still cry all the time over him. Especially when I watch videos of him and hear his voice. I too was beating myself up about his death because I had to travel to an emergency vets half an hour away because my local vets wouldn't open up because I wasn't registered there I actually considered suing the company because if I didn't have to travel half an hour he may have been able to be saved. And to be honest I wish I did take legal action against this place now because I was a paying customer and he was an animal in need of emergency care, but it's too late for me to get justice for him now and that's one of the reasons I was beating myself up so much because my head was all over the place and the whole thing made me so ill and because of this I didn't take it further but now wish I did.

I promise though it does get easier, I try to focus on the good things about his life and I know he had a happy ending because it's exactly as you say, he was mine and I was his and he knew I loved him with all my heart as I'm sure your piggy did too. He knows that you have tried your best and have given him all of your heart so please try not to focus the circumstances surrounding his passing because you are letting the horrible part take over all your loving and best memories of him.
Please always remember he loves you and he knows you love him.
All your feelings are completely normal. Especially the 'what ifs'. All I can really advise is what @Wiebke has already said and just cry when you feel like crying, don't bottle it up. You are more than welcome to drop me a message if you need to talk about anything. I really feel for you it's heartbreaking losing such a special friend and big piece of your heart and again i am so sorry for your loss x
 
I'm so sorry for your loss. Please try to remember him at his glorious best and not as he was at the end. Hugs to you xx. Popcorn free handsome Cena.
 
I am so sorry for the loss of your gorgeous piggy. Remember he had such a fantastic life with you. In time the pain will fade and be replaced with happy memories. I am really sorry for your loss.

Sleep well little one

RIP Cena
x x
 
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