i have previously been on here as gembob, but for some reason today of all days i cant get on her, so ive had to re-register! i woke up this mornin sorted out the kids, then went to take veggies out to the piggies, and drizzle ran out and started scoffin the lot, but punky just stood in the doorway. i went up to him and he just curled up underneath the stairs. i knew something was the matter and got him into the vets within twenty minutes, and by the time i got there he was even worse, he had lost the use of his legs, was lying on his side and was convulsing i think, like he was running. i just dont understand it, the vet put him to sleep, but i dont think he even knew where he was, and he had a faint heartbeat by the time she came to put him to sleep. i held him and said goodbye. i must have done something wrong, i dont understand it. i never went out yesterday because the weather was awfull, what if he was suffering all night? i cant forgive myself. he was a cheeky terror, always chewing on my hair when i cleaned him out! r.i.p punky, i love you so much and i will never forget you! I'm sorry gemmaxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx8...8...8...8...8...8...8...