Idk how to get over this....

[lilcavy7]

I know iv posted a lot of threads about my pig patches dieing but i just need someone to talk to. Its an emotional roller coaster, but I'm feeling better.... but not totally great. Iv excepted my pigs death although i miss him and i wish i could hold him and care for him and give him toys, yard time etc. i know i cant. I feel comfort when i think of my baby. I know i did my best given my situation and i would do anything for them if i knew it would make them happy. But after the comfort comes guilt, overwhelming guilt... but i know there is no reason too... i know i was a great mama. Yet i feel almost like I'm sinking. I ask myself what if i had held him he night before or even the day he died i would have noticed something and i would have helped him. I ask myself did i hold him enough?( i have 6 other pigs so its not easy holding them all at night which i usually do) I worry, Was he happy?... He seemed happy but i cant speak pig. Its winter here and way to cold for them to go eat grass in the park or go in the backyard. In the winter most of their time the are in their cages. In spring they are always playing outside. My other pig peanut broke his tooth off and i have had to give him special attention, which is hard because it makes me wish that i would have done even more for patches. ( i did take care of him, i have him medicine and everything) but he didnt seem like he needed anything more then what i gave him, he seemed normal... nothing super out of the ordinary. So imagine my horror and shock to find him dead... its the most horrifying, heart breaking, guilt filled experience of my life. We got him a stone with his name and the other things you put on a headstone and flowers. I sleep with a picture of him and a stuffed animal that looks like him.
I feel like I'm cheating him by holding the other pigs and giving them everything. I wish he was here to enjoy the love and stuff with my other pigs. He was only 3, my pigs are going to enjoy this life forever and he wont be here for all the new toys and treats... he wont get to experience new things with his family. Idk... trust me my pigs have seen and experienced many things. They are spoiled.... but i feel like he is gettin cheated by not being here... I'm afraid to give my pigs new things he didnt get because then i will feel even guiltier. I SHOULDNT FEEL GUILTY! he had a great life but i cant get passed this feeling thats a lie. Please help... how can i get past the feeling of cheating him by giving my pigs new things and stuff.... i just want him to be here to enjoy it. Idk if its the guilt or that he isnt here to enjoy new things that bothers me

 

[Lauren]

You sound like you was amazing to your guinea pigs and there is nothing more you can do now. Quit feeling guilty! You was not cruel to him in anyway . Hes in Guinea Heaven now and you could not of loved him anymore than you already do by the seems. R.I.P Patches. I hope you start to feel better and just think of the lovely memories you had with him.

 

[ILoveGilbertTheGuineaPig]

Hi, You really shouldn't be feeling guilty. You already know you've given Patches a good life, and the past cannot be changed. If another one of your pigs was to die, let's hope not, and you weren't giving them new toys because you felt you were cheating Patches since he didn't get them, well then you would feel bad that you didn't give those toys to the pig that recently passed away. Again, let's hope that doesn't happen. I think you just need some more time to accept the passing of Patches. Maybe hanging out with friends and family or just doing something fun will help you cope with the loss of Patches. Sending you hugs. xxxxxx Hope you feel better soon!

Try to have positive thoughts.

 

[Bailey]

This is what I think of when I feel sad about one of my pets

Just this side of heaven is a place called Rainbow Bridge.

When an animal dies that has been especially close to someone here, that pet goes to Rainbow Bridge. There are meadows and hills for all of our special friends so they can run and play together. There is plenty of food, water and sunshine, and our friends are warm and comfortable.


All the animals who had been ill and old are restored to health and vigor. Those who were hurt or maimed are made whole and strong again, just as we remember them in our dreams of days and times gone by. The animals are happy and content, except for one small thing; they each miss someone very special to them, who had to be left behind.

They all run and play together, but the day comes when one suddenly stops and looks into the distance. His bright eyes are intent. His eager body quivers. Suddenly he begins to run from the group, flying over the green grass, his legs carrying him faster and faster.


You have been spotted, and when you and your special friend finally meet, you cling together in joyous reunion, never to be parted again. The happy kisses rain upon your face; your hands again caress the beloved head, and you look once more into the trusting eyes of your pet, so long gone from your life but never absent from your heart.


Then you cross Rainbow Bridge together....



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Guinea pigs leave pawprints in our hearts xx

There is a grief loss centre specifically about for the loss of pets http://rainbowsbridge.com/Grief_Support_Center/Grief_Support_Home.htm
It might be worth you getting in touch (hugs)