Artemis wasn't your fault, you mustn't berate yourself for this, you did everything you did from a place of love and kindness. How could you have known the outcome...
honestly I'm sat here in tears reading your story because I know how awful it is to feel like you've failed your pigs. I'm sure everyone on here has their own experiences too.
With my Dot's latest diagnosis I'm starting to think there's something in the water in my house... I can't seem to keep a pig alive for longer than 4 years tops - and I try so hard to do it correctly - i've seen pigs kept in awful conditions who are somehow fine! sometimes its just pure bad luck.
I guess these things are sent to test our resilience.... one thing i have learnt is we have to be confident in our decisions and I reckon they can somehow sense sadness or stress too. I can't offer any practical advice I'm afraid (the advice further up sounds very sensible) but I can offer you some positive vibes of strength and resolve

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