My sweet, sweet Eleanor (Ellie) I love you so much x

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Claire W

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I am sorry that I haven't been able to do this sooner but the grief and guilt I feel right now is so powerful and overwhelming.

I had to make the heartbreaking decision to have Ellie PTS on Tuesday 8... She was struggling to eat on Monday night and just didn't seem herself. Eliza snuggled up to her all night long as if she new there was something wrong. On Tuesday morning, Ellie was still struggling to eat. I suddenly wondered if she had a dental issue so took her along with me to my vet placement as the vet there is an exotics vet and is good with dentals.

Anyway, it was found that Ellie had very diluted urine and lumps were found around her kidneys 8... Ellie was diagnosed with kidney failure. She past a lot of blood after the examination and went downhill very quickly. It was horrendous to watch and I was advised that the kindest thing to do would be to PTS. I was and still am devastated. I sat with her for a good hour to say my goodbyes before the procedure. Ellie had lost a bit of weight over the last few months but we assumed this was down to a lump removal she had in August and an allergy we were still trying to discover from what from as she occasionally 'hooted'. She did drink a little more than my other girls but this has always been the case.

Gillian explained that this could have came on very quickly and I shouldn't beat myself up but I am doing. I didn't want to see her suffer but I can't cope with the fact that I made the decision to end her life and my heart is breaking 8...

Sleep peacefully Eleanor. I love you and my heart is aching so much for you 8... Eliza, Erin and Ena are very quiet without you and miss you too.

I adopted you four years ago in April as a companion for Eliza after we had lost Connie. You were such a joy to have and you turned in to such a loving piggy.

I am so, so sorry that you didn't make it to your fifth birthday and that I had to let you go.

Sleep peacefully Angel, you have left a huge hole that can never be replaced.

Lot's and lot's of love from me, Eliza, Erin and Ena xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

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Being on here is too painful for me right now so I shall be having a break from the forum by not being around so much. I'm sorry xx
 
Oh Claire, i am crying, so god knows how you feel, my eyes almost popped out of my head when i just saw your post. I am SO sorry, but you did the kindest thing, sometimes saying goodbye is the kindest thing and the last way we can show our love for our animals to stop them suffering. I am truly devastated for you. Massive hugs xxxxxxx

Sleep well Ellie xxxxx
 
:( This brought tears to my eyes. I'm so sorry you had to go through this Claire :(, as Toffeewoffee is said, it's the last act of love we can give our little furry friends. Will be thinking of you x

Sleep tight little lady, you'll never be forgotten xx
 
I'm so sorry Claire, I love your 4 girls and everyone can see how much you love them. You did the right thing though for her and shes no longer in pain. Sleep tight Ellie xx
 
Claire I am so sorry for the loss of your beautiful girl. You really did everything you could for her, though i know this makes the pain no less. Thinking of you at this sad time *massive hugs*

Sleep well beautiful girl x

RIP Eleanor
x x
 
I'm so sorry to hear the loss of your beautiful Ellie. You cared for her in the best possible way and did everything you could for her.

RIP Eleanor, run free over the bridge precious piggy. You'll never be forgotten.

Thinking of you. x
 
Oh claire, that ia such a sad story, we all feel your pain and know exactly how you are feeling right now. There is no point in me telling you not to blame yourself, we all do the same thing sadly, but you did all you could for this beautiful girl, we all know that.

I'm sorry you won't be around but totally understand

Will be thinking of you all, much love x
 
Wheeks from the herd our thoughts are with you having had to go through this myself I know how it hurts but you did the best thing.
 
I am so sorry, you did the only thing you could do, dont be hard on yourself. Run free Ellie, you are sadly missed x
 
Oh I am so very sad you had to make such a difficult decision. I know how much pain you are in as I have been through it too. If you ever need to talk then please pm me. I am so sorry you lost your precious girl.
 
I am so sorry for your loss my love. Do not beat yourself up - you did everything you possibly could to make sure Ellie was adored. You are very much in my thoughts at this sad time. Love from all of us here xox
 
I'm so sorry about sweet Ellie - please try not to beat yourself up, you made the only decision you could given the circumstances. Ellie knew she was loved - she was a beautiful girl, and I felt privileged to've known her.

Huge hugs, Claire; RIP dear Ellie.
 
Oh Claire, my heart is breaking for you hun. Remember that I'm always here if you need me - huge hugs to you xxxxxxxxx
Sleep well beautiful Ellie xxxxxxxxx
 
You made the greatest act of love that we can do for our animals, helping her on her way to the Rainbow Bridge when her time came. She knew how much she meant to you.

So sorry Claire. Sleep peacefully little Ellie x
 
So sorry to hear you sad news about Eleanor, RIP sweetheart and remember your mum loves you dearly.:rose
 
:aLJFBQ00151070111C: This is extremely sad news. I know how hard it is to make that decision to let go having faced it myself with one of my dogs. Very sorry to hear Ellie has gone and understand your great sadness. Remember that you gave her a good life and there are 3 other girls who still need you.
 
Very sorry to hear about your loss. It's the hardest thing in the world to have to make that decision, my sympathies.
 
So sorry to hear this sad news. Sleep tight little girl..
 
Oh no, i have not been on the forum much lately and have only just seen this thread. i am so, so sorry for your loss. your decission to help her over the bridge in her hour of need is the bravest and kindest thing you could have done and an act of great love. x
 
Thinking of you Claire. These little piggies leave such a big hole in our hearts when they go.

xx
 
Dear Claire whee are totally gutted for you and are so so very sorry to hear about dear Eleanor 8...8...8...
RIP Eleanor run free at the bridge, have fun popcorning thru the lush green grassy meadows and enjoy nibbling on the sweetest blades of grass and corn silks, you will be so very very sadly missed by your devastated mummy and family and sisters and many of us on TGPF but NEVER EVER forgotten xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))) and loads of loves from Glynis, Velvet and Onyx xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Another little star now twinkling in the sky .................. :(



Special loves to the little E's from us all xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
and you their darling mummy xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
 
Rip

It only hurts when you have truly loved.

Popcorn free sweet girl

venice
 
Aww i am so sorry :( you did the right thing and i hope you start to feel better soon xx x
 
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