On monday i found out my boy had to be put down today, due to his tumour growing rapidly and his little legs being infected. I don’t even know where to begin. You were my everything and more these past 7 years. I truly believe the universe wanted us to be together. We had a very special bond i will never ever forget. I remember when i was 10/11 making powerpoints to my mum begging to get a guinea pig, and on my birthday we went and bought you and your brother, the best gift i have ever had. You had a personality as soon as i took you home, when you would popcorn around your cage and run through your orange tunnel and squeak for carrots and spinach every time you heard someone walk past or even the sound of the fridge opening! You have and always be the best boy. Over the past couple years i think we grew closer, i remember when i was studying for my exams this year and the night before my physics exam i was really nervous and he was out of his cage and came over and rubbed his head on my leg, it was like he knew i needed that, it was like he was saying ‘good luck mummy’ i know it sounds silly but he always just knew when i needed him. I’m almost away to uni to study physics and i’ll always think of that little story, i believe he was my little good luck charm, and he always will be in my heart. He was so smart, i did this little whistle and he would run over to me and sit himself on my foot, we used to run around upstairs and he would chase after my feet and have a big carrot afterwards. It’s so hard looking back at all the memories as i know i will never be able to make them again, however i know in his final week he was no longer able to do the things he loved, like running around with me or even just jumping up to lie on his hay bed. He was a big chunk of love and i will always, always remember him. I know he is no longer physically here, but he will always be with me, always be in my heart, this isn’t a goodbye just a goodnight, a see you soon almost. I think what’s hard now is just letting go, knowing that was the last bag of spinach i’ll ever have to buy, no more christmas presents or birthday presents, no more hugs no more kisses. It’s just hard. I think i’ve already said enough but it’s good to get it out. I know putting you to sleep was the best thing i could have done for you, but it was the hardest decision i’ve ever ever had to make. I’m staring at his cage right now, waiting for his little head to pop out, squeaking for some spinach and a rub on the chin. I’m so sorry i had to say goodbye ojo, but i want you to know i love you and will never stop loving you. He has been reunited with his brother, and i know is munching on the biggest carrot . You are free now son and i can’t wait to see you on the other side of the rainbow bridge. I cant wait to do our whistle and to see you run over and rub your little head on me. Thank you for everything, all the memories, all the laughs. everything. Yesterday we went and bought so much veggies and fruit and put it all on a tray and watched him inhale it all, that brought so much joy. Thank you for everything son. Mummy loves you and always will. Rest easy and goodnight 
Ojo will be willing you on to do well at uni, like before your physics exam, but from over the rainbow bridge 
