Our precious one...

Kosson

Kosson

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Our precious heart Kosson decided to join (probably) her mum and some of her siblings at rainbow bridge in the early morning on 12 June 2019.
She was around 5 years and 11months old, my daughter and I were planning to celebrate her 6th birthday next month...
Kosson was such a strong girl as well as the world's greatest therapist. We hope she is running around with her family, making lots of friends, munching some dandelions and fresh hay.

It has been more than a week since that day, but my heart still aches and it is literally a heartbroking event. My daughter seems to get recovered much better than me.

We miss you so much, Kosson. But enjoy your life there - till we join you (I hope you wait for us). We will never, ever forget you. We love you, Kosson. My daughter (who you liked to take a nap with) and Moru (the other piggy who has such a funny personality and who always tried to lick your face and bums even you told her No!) miss you so much, too.

With lots of lots of love and kisses xxxxxxxx to our Kosson.

A (my daughter), Moru, and Mum
 
So sorry for your loss.
Kosson was a good age which is a tribute to your love and care.
Be gentle with yourselves and allow time to grieve
 
I am so sorry for the loss of your little one. Please remember you gave them the most wonderful life with you. Massive hugs to you

Sleep well little one

RIP Kosson
x x
 
Merab's Slave said:
So sorry for your loss.
Kosson was a good age which is a tribute to your love and care.
Be gentle with yourselves and allow time to grieve
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Thank you for such kind words. I did not realise nearly 6 years was actually fairly old for guinea pig.
If I knew, I could have played with her more, paid attention more, given her favourite food more...
I miss her a lot as she was so special to me, even though there is another one to care (I love her, too).
 
sport_billy said:
I am so sorry for the loss of your little one. Please remember you gave them the most wonderful life with you. Massive hugs to you

Sleep well little one

RIP Kosson
x x
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Thank you for your kindness. Right now I remember what I could have done and I feel so useless and was not really worth the love and trust Kosson gave me. But I will keep your words in my mind as, yes I remember Kosson was generally a very happy girl.
Kosson says thank you to you, too. 🍀
 
VickiA said:
I’m so sorry for your loss. Popcorn free little one xx
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Thank you. I should be happy for her - I hope that she is now running with her mum, dad, other family members and friends with joy there.
 
Kosson said:
Thank you for such kind words. I did not realise nearly 6 years was actually fairly old for guinea pig.
If I knew, I could have played with her more, paid attention more, given her favourite food more...
I miss her a lot as she was so special to me, even though there is another one to care (I love her, too).
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If only.... is a normal part of grieving.
We all go through that part of the process of grief.
It really does take time for grief to work its way out.
That’s why supportive places and people to share with are so important.
Remember the love and enjoy the love you have for your other piggy.
Don’t forget we’re here for you
 
Merab's Slave said:
If only.... is a normal part of grieving.
We all go through that part of the process of grief.
It really does take time for grief to work its way out.
That’s why supportive places and people to share with are so important.
Remember the love and enjoy the love you have for your other piggy.
Don’t forget we’re here for you
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It is somewhat assuring to know everybody goes through it (even some veteran piggy caretakers).
I cannot help but feeling that I did wrong things (rather, did not do right things) that led to this consequence eventually.
But I saw photos of Kosson while I was preparing some for her funeral service, I saw that Kosson was (and is) a happy girl and she knew that everybody loved her. So I do feel it is me who dishonour her life by thinking other way round. Even the day before of that day, I saw that she was trying to live, by resting at maximum and eating as much as she could by herself.
She was a brave, worrior piggy.
Even after I realise that, I somewhat succeed to find some if onlys and feel huge guilt and feel I did not deserve such love she gave me unconditionally. I did not know such pain and loss existed. I wish I could hug her and say I love you forever as I used to do when I took her in my arms.
Thank you Merab's, it is very nice to know that I am not alone.
 
Kosson said:
It is somewhat assuring to know everybody goes through it (even some veteran piggy caretakers).
I cannot help but feeling that I did wrong things (rather, did not do right things) that led to this consequence eventually.
But I saw photos of Kosson while I was preparing some for her funeral service, I saw that Kosson was (and is) a happy girl and she knew that everybody loved her. So I do feel it is me who dishonour her life by thinking other way round. Even the day before of that day, I saw that she was trying to live, by resting at maximum and eating as much as she could by herself.
She was a brave, worrior piggy.
Even after I realise that, I somewhat succeed to find some if onlys and feel huge guilt and feel I did not deserve such love she gave me unconditionally. I did not know such pain and loss existed. I wish I could hug her and say I love you forever as I used to do when I took her in my arms.
Thank you Merab's, it is very nice to know that I am not alone.
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Rest assured - you are grieving normally.

One way of dealing with feelings of guilt is to forgive yourself - easy to say, harder to do.
The simplest way is: whenever you start feeling guilty tell yourself that you forgive yourself. At some point you will realise that you mean it.
 
So sorry to hear of your loss, lost one of my girls on Friday, it doesn't get any easier.

You gave your piggie love and care and you can't do any more then that. Take care. x
 
Merab's Slave said:
Rest assured - you are grieving normally.

One way of dealing with feelings of guilt is to forgive yourself - easy to say, harder to do.
The simplest way is: whenever you start feeling guilty tell yourself that you forgive yourself. At some point you will realise that you mean it.
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Thank you Merab's - you are right, easy to say harder to do.
It is no offence to you or other people who apply this method, I understand this should help and I should follow. However, I do feel it is too selfish for me to do that.
If it is me who should tell myself to forgive, then it means it is 'self attacking' sort whilst nobody (including, in my case, Kosson) blames me...

I wish I could see Kosson once again and tell her that I love you with all my hearts and sorry I could not do better and miss her so much. My daughter says that even though it is normal to feel huge sadness, I should stop blaming myself. Because Kosson is being (still now) loved so much and had globally a happy life. She adds that Kosson should suffer whenever I am like that. I understand but...

Yesterday, I felt that I was sort of getting over with it, but this morning, I find myself being back to the square 1. I know it depends the situation, personality, the bond to the guinea pig etc. etc., but I wonder how long this continue. It has not been even 2 weeks since the farewell, I guess it will not stop tomorrow. But at least I understand that I should stop blaming myself, I should rather remember happy days I spent / lots of hugs and purrings etc. with my Kosson... (again, this is easy to say, harder to do, isn't it?) I am not sure if I will succeed, but I will keep your advice in mind and will do once I am ready. Thank you again, Merab's.
 
5 girls said:
So sorry to hear of your loss, lost one of my girls on Friday, it doesn't get any easier.

You gave your piggie love and care and you can't do any more then that. Take care. x
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Thank you, and I am sorry that you lost your girl last Friday... Was she the first piggy that you had to say goodbye ?

I am feeling that now Kosson can be always with us, wherever we are - that is a little soothing part, but then, regret, which leads eventually to self blaming...
It is not easy to get over. Such a tremendous sorrow and loss...
 
Kosson said:
Thank you, and I am sorry that you lost your girl last Friday... Was she the first piggy that you had to say goodbye ?

I am feeling that now Kosson can be always with us, wherever we are - that is a little soothing part, but then, regret, which leads eventually to self blaming...
It is not easy to get over. Such a tremendous sorrow and loss...
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No Dusty was the 4th piggy to lose in the past 7 years, it doesn't get any easier when you lose one, they are such special creatures and they really capture your heart, Dusty was the last of the guinea pigs we purchased the four we have now are all rescues, all with strange things going on, head tilts, deafness etc but we love them whatever. Dusty was the last connection to my original 2 guinea pigs so it feels extra sad, she was so loving and friendly and certainly wasn't ready to let her go.

Hold on to the good times, you did everything you could, my heart feels for you, take care xx
 
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