Owner Sinking

[teadragon]

Hello everyone,

I was an active member a few years ago but drifted away because of life. These past few months I have been having quite a hard time.

I've been battling anxiety which came on very suddenly and from which I'm learning to control very slowly.
A long term relationship with my boyfriend crashed and burned just on time for Christmas.
I moved so now I am living on my own.
My guinea pigs aren't helping.

I feel like I am drowning and I am really having to struggle to keep my little head above the water and smiling. I am trying so hard to not hermit myself and just as I decide I'm okay FEELINGS and EMOTIONS swing out and knock me back onto my knees.

I have been thinking of rehoming the guinea pigs to someone who won't delay clipping their nails and will let them out of their cage and do more than just meet their basic needs. A friend suggested asking someone to foster them for a few months while I get settled.

I just don't know
Everything seems harder than it should - including just getting up, dressed and taking myself outside just now.

 

[Deleted member 114675]

Really sorry to hear this. Have you spoken to your doctor to see if you can get some support with your emotional well-being ?

 

[Galaxy&nibbles]

I suffer badly from anxiety (and ocd which really doesn't help) and very low moods. I tend to be a lot worse in the evenings and pick up about the next morning. My piggies keep my going though, but last night I had a sudden anxiety attack and worrying did I really want them etc. this morning I'm back to normal and love them more than anything and couldn't dream about not havin them. I'm sorry to hear you are going through a bad time, I totally know what it's like it just horrible. If you really feel you don't want your piggies anymore then maybe look to have them adopted or if you think you might change your mind when feeling abit better in yourself, maybe see if someone will take care of them until you're ready. You can pm me if you ever want to talk. I hope things start getting better for you soon.

 

[teadragon]

I have seen my doctor about my emotional wellbeing. What is frustrating is that the relationship crumbled because I wasn't getting better fast enough and this happened as I finally began to believe that I will be able to go out and NOT be anxious and I'd begun to challenge myself more.

My thoughts about rehoming the pigs have been consistent for a few months now. At first I thought it was because I'd previously been living in a shared flat and found myself looking after both my pigs and my flatmates pigs. I thought it was frustration. Then stress increased and decreased and I've laughed and worried and things have fallen apart around me and been built up again - but still the thought persists. I don't feel cheerful when I hold them, and I have a crushing guilt about wanting to rehome them and also about wanting to keep them.

I told myself I'd wait until February and see if my mood would lift as the storm began to clear, but the storm isn't clearing and I'm becoming frustrated.