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Hi my name is Lisa and i joined forum back in July last year when i first became a piggy owner.
At the end of June i bought to piggies from P@H - you may have alreday heard this part of the story.
We named them Ronaldo and Akpo - 24hrs later Ronaldo had died so we took him back and had another in exchange - who we named Wayne ( Rooney)

At first Wayne and Akpo - who we later re-named ASBO - didn't get on; they fought and rumbled a lot. After some floor time one Sunday afternoon they decided that they did in fact like each other. I was very pleased. A week later i came home to find Wayne dead. I was devastated - i couldn't face taking him back to P@H so we buried him in the garder. I then joined forum as ASBO developed a cold and i needed some advice. He was given antibiotics and soon got better.

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On Friday August 24th - i was meant to take my brother to the airport for him to go to ibzia. On my way to the house i rang my mum - she was crying and was hysterical. By the time i got there it was too late my dad had passed away. He was only 56 and had not been ill so it quite a shock to us all. Over the next few days i tried to stay strong for my mam, i found it hard to talk to people so i talked to ASBO and Bob (my westie)

As it was a bank holiday we had to wait a while for the funeral, so i stayed at mam's with ASBO and Bob. On the Sunday ASBO escaped from his pen whilst in the garden. My parents lived on a farm so i knew i would never see him again as the garden is so large. This broke me. Although i loved ASBO a great deal i knew that i could buy another piggie - i couldn't buy another Dad.

On the day of the funeral, Tuesday, over 200 people came. We decided to have the wake at the house. My father was very proud of his home and it was therefore fitting that people came back there. Amongst all the noise and all the people - around 150 at the wake - ASBO wandering back out from the trees. It was a real life modern day miracle. It was almost as if my dad had sent him back to me.

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In November we decided to get another piggy and found a lush little cutey who we named Moses ( i teach RE) they got on like a house on fire - MO and BO. It was strange to see how big ASBO was compared to Moses who was quite tuny. I now had three little people to talk to and cry with.

Last night i came home to find that ASBO was quite poorly - he had the runs. He had been perfectly fine the day before popconing around with Mo. I took him to the emergency vets. But at 3 this morning they rang to say he was failing fast and asked for my consent to put him to sleep. It seems that death likes me. I just feel awful. My partner has just brought him home after paying a £105.67 vets bill.

I have taken the day off, i feel a little ashamed in saying that - but in my job teaching is very much like acting - i have worked very hard since Sept not to break down during my lessons - which is hard when i have to teach about death. I think i may have gone back to work too soon - but i needed another focus. I just couldn't face it today.

I have written this in a selfish way i suppose hoping that i would feel better - i am still crying - so i guess not. plus i have had to type it twice as my server went down!

I don't know if GPOTM is still running but i think that my Bo deserves to be piggy of the year!

I suppose my dad needed him back. Miss you both always x

Thanks for reading
 
Awwww hunny.....I just dont know what to say :'( :'( :'( :'( :'(

(((((((HUGS)))))))))

Dont ever think its selfish to need to vent, or have someone to talk to, we are all more than happy to give a shoulder :'( :'(

I know you can never get over loss - but I hope you can get through it :'( :'( :'(

There are two more angels in heaven 0:)

Thinking of you.xx
 
Hi Lisa,firstly I am sending you a big big cuddle :-* :-*
Losing someone close, especially your Daddy is so hard,I lost mine nearly ten years ago and not a day passes without him being in my thoughts.
You need time to grieve,it's still very raw for you,don't feel bad about taking time off school ,you need to,otherwise you will end up making yourself ill and what good will that do?
If it helps to write it all down....write away,everyone has different ways of dealing with things,I used to talk to my Daddy,it worked for me.
All I can say is that there will always be someone here to talk to or listen to you if you need us.
Take care Love sammy xx
 
Lisa,
(((((((((( BIG HUGS ))))))))))
I am so sorry to hear about your losses. Never be worried about showing feeling. My friend, also a teacher lost her Dad in August and after trying to bottle her feelings, ended up having a breakdown.
She is now back on her feet.
Give yourself whatever time you need.
I am usually around if you want to talk.
Take care
Anne. xx
 
Hi Lisa, I'm so sorry :( only the other day i was wondering where you had got to, dont be ashamed to grieve. We're all here for you, take some time to yourself. Thinking of you x
 
I am in tears after reading that :'(
Amazing that ASBO came back the day of the funeral, like your dad sending you a message. ASBO and friends are now happily popcorning at the bridge.
I am so terribly sorry for your loss and I agree with the others...you need time to grieve and heal, so not too much too soon :-*

Thank you for being brave and sharing your sorrow with us, if you need to chat, or rant, feel free. Anything we can do to help or even just be here for you, we will :smitten: :smitten:
 
So sorry for your losses Lisa. Puts everything we go through into perspective. x
 
That is very true S&T, here is me moaning away about trivial things.
 
Oh hun i am so sorry things have gone so badly of track for you, i hope you find the strength to get back on the stage to act, but ALLOW yourself time to heal.
 
So sorry to hear about your desperately sad time, the sun will shine for you again, I promise. In the meantime be kind to yourself xx
 
awwww :'( just take time out to mourn and find yourself again, lots of hugs coming your way, be strong :)
 
Big hugs for you!
I lost my Daddy 4yrs ago (Sept coming up) and after his death, I started losing guineas one by one, I went to a few vets and they could do nothing. By this stage I had lost 15 and it wasnt until I got to the loss of 20 when I found the best vet ever! He did a post morturm, give the 30 pigs I had at home medication and only charged me £20. Sadly I lost a total of 30 pigs to gastroentritis but I thought my bad luck would never stop. At first when I lost a couple I told my Dad that he could take a couple to keep him company but no more.
Keep your chin up chick.

Emma x
 
sorry for your loses and hope that writing it down for others to read helps if even in a little way x
 
Hi lisa,
So sorry you lost your dad so suddenly, I can't imagine what you must be going through.
((((((big hugs)))))) from me, look after yourself and stay strong.
x
 
Of course there are no words that could possibly lessen your grief at a time like this ...but just know that others are out here sending positive thoughts your way. Take care of yourself and when you are ready get a new piggy....they need you just as much as you need them.
 
thank you all for your words of kindness.

i just wanted to write it down i suppose to honour ASBO and also my dad in a strange way.

it does put things into perspective as one of you said.

thanks again xx
 
this actually made me cry a little. :'(

youre not being selfish i dont think. you deserve to say what has happened and get it off your chest. many hugs and cuddles from me and mine. we wish you all of the best to come. talk about it all that you need to.
 
you're not being selfish, and I think you should take as much time as you need to grieve...sorry for your loses and big hugs from me.
 
All i can say is that you are a brave and special person
So Sorry for all that you have lost
{{{{{{BIG HUG}}}}}}
From everyone here
Ron x
 
Hi Lisa so sorry to hear about your losses i know what you are going through 18 yrs ago my 15 year old brother was killed in a road accident i turned to my rabbit sandy for comfort he got me through it then 2 yrs latter i lost my dad suddenly with a heart attack and again i turned to sandy for comfort then 6 mths latter sandy died at the age of 9 i was devastated i didnt think i would get through it at the time but its true what they say time heals i am thinking of you big hug :smitten: :smitten:
 
So sorry to hear about your loss. After my little sister died i tried like you to just get on with it to block it out. I didn't even tell anyone what had happened because i think i didn't want to accept it or deal with it at that time. I was 6mths pregnant when she passed and so i believed that having a new baby to deal with would distract me and keep my head busy enough to not have to think about it. I managed to keep this up until my baby was about 6mths old and then i just went down hill from there and ended up on medication. I suppose what i'm trying to say is that we all deal with grief and loss in our own way and in our own time but when you come to that time don't fight it because you NEED to go through it. It helps to talk and say it out loud as well or write it down as you have done here. I found writing my feelings down on paper very good and would write lots of poetry, which no one else has ever seen, but i read it now and cannot believe the hurt and anger i read there, but that was how i felt. Now, 13 years on i still miss my sister and always will and some days when i hear a song or see something which reminds me of her i still feel sad and cry but it dosn't hurt in my heart nearly as bad as before and i remember her as she was and the good times i had with her because that part of a loved one will never die and can never be taken away or lost. I believe he sent your piggy in the right direction to you to show you his love and care and never forget he will always be with you and if you look for the signs like on the day of his funeral you will see them. (hope this dosn't go against your beliefs, sorry if it does)
Bless him and you and your piggys x
 
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