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Rest in peace my beautiful ginger, red eyed girl. She had done so well after last September to have a cyst removed and I had seven more months with her. I had to have her PTS due to a tumour in her tummy on Monday. She'd done well on pain meds for arthritis and just didn't want to give up but with the help of the vet we both decided she wasn't eating enough and it was kinder to let her go as she would of been in pain. I feel really guilty about it and so upset. No munching noises, no squeaks, no chuckling when she walks, just an odd quietness. Me and her over the last year have had an even bigger bond. I decided today to take her cage apart as I couldn't do it before and felt it best as I just kept forgetting she wasn't in it and expected her to look out when she heard me. She was five and two months so she had done well. It's thanks to the forum way back in 2012 where I first discovered c and c and I'm sure being in this type of cage inside helped her live a happy life. Miss you so much Ruby x

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I'm so very sorry for your loss. She was a beautiful girl. And you loved her enough to help her to the Bridge. That was the kindest thing for her. Popcorn free beautiful girl.
 
I am so sorry for your loss!

It is very normal to question yourself after making a decision like that. While your head knows that you have done the kindest thing you could to do spare Ruby any further suffering, it takes a while for your heart to catch up. Personally, I find the first few days when I have to re-train yourself and adapt my whole daily routine to no longer encompass a beloved piggy the worst. The silence from a piggy gone can be truly deafening. HUGS!

When you are able to, take pride in having given Ruby such a happy and long life, but give yourself time to grieve after losing a much beloved piggy and close friend.
 
Thank you Wiebke. It is hard not having anyone who understands to chat to. You are right my routine has changed especially first thing in a morning as before anything I had to feed her as she'd be waiting, and I guess my identity has changed too,

I've always owned a Guinea I just love them and how tame they become. I'm trying to do mindfulness that I know she loved me and that she was truely happy but it is hard to accept she's gone.

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Sian said:
Thank you Wiebke. It is hard not having anyone who understands to chat to. You are right my routine has changed especially first thing in a morning as before anything I had to feed her as she'd be waiting, and I guess my identity has changed too,

I've always owned a Guinea I just love them and how tame they become. I'm trying to do mindfulness that I know she loved me and that she was truely happy but it is hard to accept she's gone.

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It doesn't matter how many piggies you've had or have, the pain of the loss is never any less. Each bond is unique. When you have an especially close bond and have nursed a piggy through its illness, it is like losing a child you knew from the start would never to live to adulthood. It is also very difficult to switch from a lifestyle that has revolved round caring for your guinea pig to one where there is no piggy at all.

That doesn't happen instantly. You have so many unthinking reflexes and routines which bring home your loss jarringly all the time and tear open your wound again.

If it helps you, may want consider starting a diary to write about your feelings, but also write down all the little and large snatches of memory you have of Ruby, as they come back to you. Over time, you will hopefully find that your feelings are gradually changing, but you will also discover how much of Ruby is still there with you - and as it has been written down, it cannot be take away from you! ;)
 
Thank you Wiebke, I have tons of photos of her, and your advice comes straight from the heart of someone who knows exactly what it feels like. You are right, I worried first and foremost about her. I don't think there could be two Ruby's she was unique. I'll post my favourite photo of her, it was a summers day when I took it. Xx

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What a beautiful stunning little lady. I am so sorry for your loss. It is so hard to let them go and to have to help them but you made the right choice for her and it was made with the love for her at the forefront of your mind. The first few days and weeks of losing them are the worst while you adjust to a new kind of normal. Ruby will stay in your heart forever in the little nest of love she made. Huge hugs and I am so very sorry x x

Sleep well gorgeous girl

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Awww she was beautiful. I know exactly how your feeling we had our little fudge pts on Monday as she had a tumour on her belly. I had to do my food shopping yesterday and it was awful as there was no piggy veg in my trolley. Being in the house is terrible, getting up in the morning we constantly chatted to her. I've felt guilty as well but we have to remind ourselves that we have done the right thing. Sending you big hugs xx
 
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Awww she was beautiful. I know exactly how your feeling we had our little fudge pts on Monday as she had a tumour on her belly. I had to do my food shopping yesterday and it was awful as there was no piggy veg in my trolley. Being in the house is terrible, getting up in the morning we constantly chatted to her. I've felt guilty as well but we have to remind ourselves that we have done the right thing. Sending you big hugs xx
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I'm so sorry about your Fudge. It's lovely to hear how others feel the same. Still crying I'm afraid even typing now. The amount of time they take up in our lives without us realising until they are gone. The place where Ruby was is just so bare and horrid. It did make me smile about the veggies though you are right I go shopping later I look so healthy at the checkout all the veggies on the conveyor belt but they were for Ruby :hug:it I wonder why they suffer with tumours and things if only they didn't heh. You ought to when you are ready put a favourite photo of Fudge. Thanks for replying. x
 
I've tried to arrange the furniture in the dining room but it hasn't helped! For a split second when I walk in the room I think she's there. We are still having tears too so don't worry.
 
I'm so sorry for your loss! It's heartbreaking when we are out in that situation but just remember you did what was best for her and you didn't let her suffer. Your decision was made through love. I was devistated when I had to have my frankie pts, and at times I wondered if I had made the right decision but I know I did because it would have been horrible to see him suffer and he didn't deserve to be treated like that. He deserved to pass away with dignity rather than lay around suffering and not being able to enjoy a full and happy life.

Popcorn free little girl x
 
Thank you Stayc. I know we no way want them suffering, if they aren't wandering around eating it's not normal. Sorry about Frankie. X. Feeling a little better day by day but I keep automatically thinking to do things for her or go over to her. Then just burst in tears. I remember her flicking me off all the time when I leant in and kissed her head. She loved her life like they all do that's what so sad. Xx
 
I'm so sorry for your loss.She was beautiful.You made the right choice even though it's the most difficult one to make.We all understand what it's like, I've been devastated every time I've lost a pig xx
 
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