My darling boys are back homeI always get a little fur clipping as well
Thank youYou feel better when you have your piggies back with you, whichever way.
Try to give yourself time to grieve and to process it all. You are still only in the early stages. Even if it is just a quiet moment for yourself here and there.
I still don’t feel like I’ve grieved properly. There’s a big part of me that’s kind of numb with disbelief. I’ve not really processed what’s happened 
Thank you
I lost two of my boys early on, right at the start of keeping Guinea Pigs. One was only six months old and died traumatically on our laps (think it was a heart issue) and the other was a new rescue boy who died after just six months of adopting him. 
Thank you so much.. I’ve never explored healing frequencies.It's so horrible when you lose them especially when it's sudden.
Both their premature deaths tore me up so much and that's why I looked into the healing frequencies, because I had to look into ways of healing/prevention that didn't cost a lot/was free, as money is always very tight for us. Now I feel a lot more relaxed about my current boys and they do seem to be staying very healthy with all the frequencies I play daily!
I really hope you feel more at peace with what happened to your lovely boys, in time.
I found this today, which you may find interesting re the frequencies.......
CLASSIFIED FRAGMENT - OPERATION SILENCE (1957)In 1957, a covert project known as Operation Silence documented an anomaly scientists couldn’t explain. Deep in underground facilities, researchers exposed living tissue to a frequency identical to Earth’s original resonance — 7.83 Hz.The result?
Cells stopped deteriorating.DNA self-corrected.Wounds sealed in minutes.
That’s just heartbreaking 
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Thank you
Along with the other frequencies, you can also try this 'Animal Regeneration' one, some of the comments are good to read on there, because they do seem to have helped their pets get better, mostly!Thank you so much.. I’ve never explored healing frequencies.
I’m so so sorry about the loss of your boys when they were young
I am really worried about Peanut as he’s not eating as well as he was yesterday
It really is rubbish... It's actually nice to talk to someone who gets it! I actually contemplated having a sneaky nap at work the other dayThank you.. you’re right.. it does bring some closure and helps start the healing process.
I was thinking about getting a couple of weeks off work to be honest, although I would feel so bad as the team can’t even divide up my duties - I cover so much. I know that nobody is truly indispensable but my role keeps the whole team of 16 afloat - but then again my health comes first. I could definitely benefit from some time away from the stress of working in the prison environment.
I’m sorry to hear about your possible fibro diagnosisxx
How is his weight?Thank you so much.. I’ve never explored healing frequencies.
I’m so so sorry about the loss of your boys when they were young
I am really worried about Peanut as he’s not eating as well as he was yesterday
I get it completely, and the sneaky naps too! I almost nodded off at my desk the other day. I was the only one in the office! I managed not to though as the door was unlocked and a prisoner could’ve just walked in and seen me asleep! Could have been riskyIt really is rubbish... It's actually nice to talk to someone who gets it! I actually contemplated having a sneaky nap at work the other day
Honestly you have to put yourself first here regarding work - on your deathbed would you regret not going in simply to benefit others?
There will come a point when you have no choice to take time off if you keep going when you're struggling so much.
Perhaps then your employer will take everything you do more seriously when they see what it's like without you!
Sorry to hear Peanut isn't very hungry. I've got a very poorly house rabbit at the minute - it's such a roller coaster! All you want is for them to get better. I'm sure he's just having an off day and will be just fine
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. I hope they get better soon . Peanut seems to be nibbling some hay and spinach leaves so hopefully he’ll pick up. I haven’t been to the vet again as I wanted to see how things went for a bit, but I think I’ll make an appointment for tomorrow evening.
He’s 1.1kg so his weight is quite steady. It’s been pretty much the same for the past 2 weeksHow is his weight?
Would a doctor do that, for a pet?If your GP is aware that you are dealing with bereavement on top of the fibromyalgia they may well be prepared to give you a sick note to give you time to recover.
It will be one less pressure.
Holding you in my heart
Some might. It’s always worth asking especially as in this case it’s on top of fibromyalgia.Would a doctor do that, for a pet?
A sick note doesn't depend on the type of bereavement but on how badly it has affected your mental health. I would definitely have a chat with you gpWould a doctor do that, for a pet?
Thank you so much. That makes senseIf your GP is aware that you are dealing with bereavement on top of the fibromyalgia they may well be prepared to give you a sick note to give you time to recover.
It will be one less pressure.
Holding you in my heart
Yes, I think that’s a good approach, thank you. Honestly, my piggies have been my support through dark times, such as when my mum died 2 years ago. My boys kept me goingPerhaps be a little vague but honest and say you have lost two loved ones
That’s very true, and they know how important I am to the team. I’m a one-woman admin team and I hold all the processes together!
Thank you for your lovely, caring words. My heart is so heavy every day so I definitely need to have some professional support. I feel like I’m just papering over the cracks at the moment, and not addressing my deep seated grief. I’m not very good at self-care. I’ve been a single mum for 13 years and I haven’t been co-parenting either as my ex-partner was (and still is) an alcoholic. He was abusive towards me as well. To this day, any kind of conflict makes me feel sick with anxiety. I haven’t even gone back to the boarder yet to confront her. I’ve just been focused on Peanut and trying to grieve for Shaun and BiscuitYou are pretty severaly traumatised and have switched to just functioning in daily life out of necessity. The numbness/disbelief is a not at all uncommon trauma response; especially in view of your stressful job, which comes with a lot of responsibility and having to bring up a family as well.
What I would recommend is to either contact the Blue Cross services or your gp for a referral - waiting lists are long so you'd better start early.
Please don't wait and tell yourself that it will get better on its own. If you suppress it too much, it is going to explode in your face at the worst possible time, just as soon as there is another spark to light that fuse.
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I am so very sorry that you are dealing with it all through no fault of your own. Your capacity to love and your commitment of care runs deep and it has been betrayed in the worst possible way. There is no shame in needing help. We all have times in our lives where we come to our limits or get beyond them.
And yes, I have been there as well. I did go to my gp still back in Switzerland, who - since he was treating my dad for his terminal cancer at the time - was aware of at least part of the multiple stresses from different sides I was dealing with, to get support while the immediate workplace situation lasted and could not be resolved. It did the trick of getting me through the next few months and enabled me to make some life changing decisions, which I have never rued. It also helped to believe in myself and to consolidate my inner core of strength which is helping me massively now, a quarter of a century down the line when I am facing my own cancer battle at a very similar age as my dad but with a totally different type of cancer.
BIG HUGS
My thoughts continue to be with you, your family and Peanut.
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Have you tried any of the frequencies yet?By the way, Peanut’s weight is almost 1.3kg so he’s put on a bit of weight. His right hind leg is definitely not working at all and is now ‘fixed’ underneath him in one position. His left hind leg has a little bit of mobility. I definitely need to look into piggy physio for him but finances may prevent me from pursuing that option. He’s still eating well every day
It could be worth trying some water therapy. Put a few inches of warm water in a bowl and whilst fully supporting him, pop his back legs into the water. He may find it easier to move his legs in the water! If he tolerates this, maybe try it daily! I’ve currently got sciatica's, but I swim daily. Whilst I’m in the water I’m totally pain free.By the way, Peanut’s weight is almost 1.3kg so he’s put on a bit of weight. His right hind leg is definitely not working at all and is now ‘fixed’ underneath him in one position. His left hind leg has a little bit of mobility. I definitely need to look into piggy physio for him but finances may prevent me from pursuing that option. He’s still eating well every day
You really have been through a very difficult and traumatic timeThank you for your lovely, caring words. My heart is so heavy every day so I definitely need to have some professional support. I feel like I’m just papering over the cracks at the moment, and not addressing my deep seated grief. I’m not very good at self-care. I’ve been a single mum for 13 years and I haven’t been co-parenting either as my ex-partner was (and still is) an alcoholic. He was abusive towards me as well. To this day, any kind of conflict makes me feel sick with anxiety. I haven’t even gone back to the boarder yet to confront her. I’ve just been focused on Peanut and trying to grieve for Shaun and Biscuit
I’m so sorry that you’re having to deal with cancer
and do need to seek some help otherwise you will get ill, and you owe it to yourself and your family to not let that happen. 
You may cry while you listen to them, you probably will, but that's ok, it's all part of the healing process. Things will get better, I promise!
, but the thing is, they usually work and they're free (Well almost!)! 
