Today would have been Eleanor's 'birthday'

[Claire W]

Well today would have been Eleanor's 5th 'gotcha' day but she would have been around 5

Even though I now have Enoch and Ellie died 3 months ago, I still miss her so much. I am still eaten up by guilt for having her pts even though I have been told many times that I did the right thing

Happy birthday Eleanor. Love you x

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[Toffeewoffee]

You absolutely did the right thing and you did it out of love, sometimes it is the last act of love we can give them, i know its horrible, i understand how your feeling, but always remember without your decision she probably would have suffered horrendously, but due to your love care and kindness she has started a new healthy life at Rainbow bridge with many new friends. She'll be celebrating up there, and i am sure thanking you for everything.

Big Hugs Claire.

xxxxx

 

[piggyfan]

Oh Claire what a sad day it must be for you. I know how much you loved and miss your little girl. Please do not feel guilty as you did the kindest thing to her by helping her not feel any more pain. I am always here if you need to talk. x

 

[Claire W]

Thank you both. I think it is because I didn't handle the situation well at all especially as I was suppose to be 'working' at the vets at the time I couldn't watch her go and fell apart. The only consolation I have is that the vet and vet nurse who assisted her wasn't just any vet and vet nurse if you know what I mean.

I have seen so many dead animals and it doesn't bother me but I just couldn't see my own xx

 

[Toffeewoffee]

Can anyone really handle it? Your not alone honey, i dont do dead things atall, seeing birds, dears, badgers or anything on the side of the road kills me, hearing my OH's stories from the animal sanctuary he works at...... even human bodies, i just cant handle anything dead, i am petrified of the day i come home to one of mine in a forever sleep........ or even when we had out 2 girls pts a few years ago, i said my goodbyes before as i knew once they were gone i wouldn't be able to look at them again.

x

 

[piggyfan]

I can totally understand that. When I saw Ehab last month I could not handle it. I became physically ill and was bed bound for two weeks. I am sure you did not have such a weak reaction as me. You are being very hard on yourself. You lost your precious girl and that is not something you can just overcome. x

 

[sport_billy]

Oh Claire, have a massive hug x

Please don't beat yourself up, the guilt is a natural part of grief. She was a beautiful piggie who was adored and worshipped by you. You would never have made a wrong decison for her. Big hugs to you today. x

Thank you for posting that lovely picture of your gorgeous little girl.

 

[biscandmatt]

i think when they pass, grief naturally makes us doubt every little thing we did/didn't do/should have done etc etc. i think the idea of pts wouldn't have even entered your mind, and you certainly wouldn't have been able to go through with it, had you not felt it was the right thing. you did the kindest thing. x

 

[Jerrybelly]

You absolutely made the right decision, and because you were strong enough to do so she is now happy and pain-free, spending her days at the Bridge with all our lost loved ones xx

 

[KaitRoo]

Aww what a beautiful pig Eleanor was Claire! You did the best you could for her and I think it's a huge blessing that you are going to continue to remember her for a long time to come xx

 

[Hanwombat]

Big hugs, she was such a beautiful girl.. x