I'd defy anyone to go through what you've gone through Ruth and not have anxiety. Well done for recognising your own symptoms and seeing the doc. You need to look after yourself so you can look after your little herd. Hugs xx
I'm not so good this morningAll the piggies are fine, but it's really hitting me. My anxiety (I have an anxiety disorder) has gone through the room and haven't slept all night
Been to the docs this morning as I know I have to get on top of it when I have flare ups.
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There was probably nothing to see. Given how quickly this ripped through your herd it was clearly very fast acting. You have nothing to reproach yourself for. Instead you should be proud of how you kept it together and were strong for the rest of your little ones, which has kept them safe from this horrible disease. No one could have done any more than you did, and many wouldn't have been so quick to act. Grieve for them, but don't feel pain for anything other than their loss. HugsxThank you!
Today has been an emotional day. Spoke to the vet this morning about the PM's. The only thing that showed up was congested lungs in both pigs. The vet is convinced it is some kind of viral pnuemonia, which the zithromax antibiotics should kill in the remaining piggies. She's happy that the other pigs are doing well, they are still going to get a checkup at the end of their antibiotics. I'm so frustrated knowing that I didn't see any symptoms, I should have known what was going on and saved more of my pigs. How do I miss something like this?![]()
There was probably nothing to see. Given how quickly this ripped through your herd it was clearly very fast acting. You have nothing to reproach yourself for. Instead you should be proud of how you kept it together and were strong for the rest of your little ones, which has kept them safe from this horrible disease. No one could have done any more than you did, and many wouldn't have been so quick to act. Grieve for them, but don't feel pain for anything other than their loss. Hugsx
There was probably nothing to see. Given how quickly this ripped through your herd it was clearly very fast acting. You have nothing to reproach yourself for. Instead you should be proud of how you kept it together and were strong for the rest of your little ones, which has kept them safe from this horrible disease. No one could have done any more than you did, and many wouldn't have been so quick to act. Grieve for them, but don't feel pain for anything other than their loss. Hugsx
This over and over again. Could have... should have... always the same things we all say Ruth. When I lost Bumble I "should have got home from work sooner", I shouldn't have visited my parents and then maybe I "could have" saved her. I do believe in fate to some extent and that everything happens for a reason no matter how difficult it is to deal with or how heartbroken it leaves us. If there are no symptoms Ruth then what could you do? Do you take the pigs to the vets once a week to check and make sure? What would you advise IF this were happening to another member of the forum? Of course you would be saying that no one would no, there were no symptoms and it all happened too fast and whilst extremely sad it was completely unpreventable .
Trying to place blame either on ourselves or others is a part of the grieving process and some point you will realise there is no blame on you. You did what you could given the circumstances and actually, due to your quick actions, you saved 6 pigs. Maybe that's something you can focus on, those you saved from death rather than those you couldn't save.
Thank you xx
Thank you Kelly, you are right, I know that deep down. I'm just completely gutted to loose so many from my herd. I need to think positive and concentrate on those left now, and myself. Without this place and the amazing people here I think I'd be an absolute mess![]()
I'm so sorryWe've lost another 2 todaybeen back to the vets. Remaining 4 check out fine but antibiotics have been extended to try and fight it. Everything has been tipped apart and soaked in f10 again. I wish i knew how else to fight it
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