Zoe aging and I'm distraught, up and down

[tahnie]

Hi little Zoe, is nearly 6. She has had such a health scare i thought she needed to be put down last week, vet heard my concern and agreed. I had a panick attack (i have never had one) and felt like i needed hospitalisation at one point. THANK GD he changed his mind and said , you could give her 24 more hours and see how she goes and up the pain meds. I bought her "last meal", came home to her WHEEKING which she hasnt done in ages. I went from complete devastation to complete relief. She hasnt been crying. She has been happy. Started eating pellets even! Anyeay, she has "death swelling" though now, my previous queen Zara had the swelling and died a week later. I have had such up and down conflicting up and down emotions. Its crazy to me that i had the grief of what i thought was a forever goodbye, her final day, thinking was completely over, to now feeling intense worry about worrying about her dyeing at a later time ..(her swelling which i cant cope with, i know its bad situation.) if you know what i mean how weird the sitch is. I am crying in public every day, my fault for talking about her at uni, i thought i could. But discussing it made me distraught, so best i shut up. Anyway, i need closure so will go to vet and find out the truth as i need confirmation and i need to know...i guess we will x ray her and i will hear the bad news...
Anyway, the change in emotions to know worrying everyday in agony. I know the only thing that will help is moving back overseas. Like do you know what i mean, grieving the lsst day i thought, to now grieving everyday in worry and prolonging the agony.
I dont want guinea pig medical advice plesse it will distress me, i will hear it from the vet tomorrow. Just wanted to discuss in a guineanpig forum with targeted guinea pig lovers that will understand the pain, opposed to everyone else in my life who doesnt understand or get it, which is frustrating, my love for my guinea. Thanks x

 

[tahnie]

I mean when she passess i will go overseas

 

[Truffolo]

I am sorry to hear you are down. Sending wishes for healing and comfort ❤

 

[fluffysal]

I absolutely understand. I very recently lost my beautiful, dramatic Mischievous Master Boris to satin syndrome. Watching the deterioration of our loved piggies is it's own kind of grieving, especially when they still have moments of being at their happiest.
Big sexy rumbles and a smile for you from Dignified Sir George x

 

[Roselina]

I’m sorry to read your post.
Often people ( who are not familiar with guinea pigs) don’t get it
We do and are always here to support you
I hope the Vet is also understanding
Keep posting and sharing your thoughts

 

[LucyP]

You sound like a very caring and loving owner indeed and your love for Zoe really shines through. What an ordeal you are going through, I’m sorry.

We all understand that losing them, or the thought of losing them, is absolutely devastating. And the roller coaster you are on after this recent turn of events, and your anticipatory grief is bound to be taking its toll on you, so give yourself some grace, it is so hard to be in these situations.

If there’s no one in your immediate social/family circle who can support you through this, remember you have people here you can vent to any time. You can get through this.

Thinking of you and Zoe and sending best wishes.

 

[tahnie]

You sound like a very caring and loving owner indeed and your love for Zoe really shines through. What an ordeal you are going through, I’m sorry.

We all understand that losing them, or the thought of losing them, is absolutely devastating. And the roller coaster you are on after this recent turn of events, and your anticipatory grief is bound to be taking its toll on you, so give yourself some grace, it is so hard to be in these situations.

If there’s no one in your immediate social/family circle who can support you through this, remember you have people here you can vent to any time. You can get through this.

Thinking of you and Zoe and sending best wishes.

Thats so kind thanks very much

 

[tahnie]

You sound like a very caring and loving owner indeed and your love for Zoe really shines through. What an ordeal you are going through, I’m sorry.

We all understand that losing them, or the thought of losing them, is absolutely devastating. And the roller coaster you are on after this recent turn of events, and your anticipatory grief is bound to be taking its toll on you, so give yourself some grace, it is so hard to be in these situations.

If there’s no one in your immediate social/family circle who can support you through this, remember you have people here you can vent to any time. You can get through this.

Thinking of you and Zoe and sending best wishes.

I’m sorry to read your post.
Often people ( who are not familiar with guinea pigs) don’t get it
We do and are always here to support you
I hope the Vet is also understanding
Keep posting and sharing your thoughts

Thanks so much

 

[tahnie]

You sound like a very caring and loving owner indeed and your love for Zoe really shines through. What an ordeal you are going through, I’m sorry.

We all understand that losing them, or the thought of losing them, is absolutely devastating. And the roller coaster you are on after this recent turn of events, and your anticipatory grief is bound to be taking its toll on you, so give yourself some grace, it is so hard to be in these situations.

If there’s no one in your immediate social/family circle who can support you through this, remember you have people here you can vent to any time. You can get through this.

Thinking of you and Zoe and sending best wishes.

Thanj you so mu h

 

[tahnie]

You sound like a very caring and loving owner indeed and your love for Zoe really shines through. What an ordeal you are going through, I’m sorry.

We all understand that losing them, or the thought of losing them, is absolutely devastating. And the roller coaster you are on after this recent turn of events, and your anticipatory grief is bound to be taking its toll on you, so give yourself some grace, it is so hard to be in these situations.

If there’s no one in your immediate social/family circle who can support you through this, remember you have people here you can vent to any time. You can get through this.

Thinking of you and Zoe and sending best wishes.

Thanks

 

[tahnie]

I’m sorry to read your post.
Often people ( who are not familiar with guinea pigs) don’t get it
We do and are always here to support you
I hope the Vet is also understanding
Keep posting and sharing your thoughts

Thanjs very much

 

[tahnie]

You sound like a very caring and loving owner indeed and your love for Zoe really shines through. What an ordeal you are going through, I’m sorry.

We all understand that losing them, or the thought of losing them, is absolutely devastating. And the roller coaster you are on after this recent turn of events, and your anticipatory grief is bound to be taking its toll on you, so give yourself some grace, it is so hard to be in these situations.

If there’s no one in your immediate social/family circle who can support you through this, remember you have people here you can vent to any time. You can get through this.

Thinking of you and Zoe and sending best wishes.

Thanks

 

[tahnie]

I absolutely understand. I very recently lost my beautiful, dramatic Mischievous Master Boris to satin syndrome. Watching the deterioration of our loved piggies is it's own kind of grieving, especially when they still have moments of being at their happiest.
Big sexy rumbles and a smile for you from Dignified Sir George x
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Aww gorg yhanks

 

[tahnie]

I am sorry to hear you are down. Sending wishes for healing and comfort ❤

Thanks so mu h

 

[tahnie]

Shes been quite large for a week which is the worry..even tho shes eating and playing etc and her poos are back to normal tho some are slightly smaller

 

[tahnie]

Shes been quite large for a week which is the worry..even tho shes eating and playing etc and her poos are back to normal tho some are slightly smaller

Does she look worthy of definitely checking it out? How does she look to all of you size wise?

 

[weepweeps]

I’m so sorry Zoe is poorly. She looks such a sweet piggy.

Sending you massive hugs. We all understand here how awful it is when they are poorly.

I have had a piggy on palliative care because of a tumour. I said as long as he was eating, pooping and coming to the bars to see me then he still had a good life. If Zoe is doing well on her pain meds and still happy then just give her lots more happy days with you.

 

[Merab]

So sorry that Zoe is causing you such anxiety.
Holding you in my heart

 

[Wiebke]

BIG HUGS

I am so very sorry. Losing a beloved one is so very stressful and it can totally throw you, especially when the question comes at you out of the blue, and you find that you are not ready and cannot cope.

Having coming up to a 100 piggies passing through my life off and on over half a century and having had to say goodbye to about coming 80 of them, whether that is putting them to sleep (euthanasia), having them dying at home or finding them dead in the morning without warning, it is your first encounter with a loss that is one of the hardest.

I sincerely hope that the links below can help you. A lot of my own experiences or practical experiences with helping forum members have gone into these guides in order to make it easier for you when you come face to face with an impending loss, what you can do, how you can work out what is in your heart of hearts so you feel less overwhelmed when the time comes and what you can do in the meantime. I have tried to make them as practical and accessible as possible.

There is a surprising amount of life and love still to be had, which you can carry on through your life in your precious special memories.

My most special piggy of all, Minx, lived 20 years ago but she still comes to me to play with me in the garden when I am in a scan with my incurable stage 4 cancer and brain tumour, and still has the magic to make me come out of the scan smiling - that is the enduring power of love.

These are the kind of truly lasting memories you still have time to create in order to be able to warm the cold fingers of your soul at years down the line because you will only lose Zoe completely if you throw your memories of her away and refuse to revisit because you are afraid of the pain.

It is going to be very painful for a while to think of her and no longer having her in your life like it was with my Minx, but Zoe can after that become your beacon for new love and new paths - because there will be those again for you when you are open for them and wherever you go. And she can become your own beacon of light in the darkest of times because you have that special love to bridge time and space with that love and those memories that never die in your heart.

Right now are the golden days in which you can make the most of it because love transcends time. Focus on how you can cherish those precious moments with her. Your grieving process is running underneath it all but it is hopefully not going to drown you the next time round.

Here are the guides that will hopefully help you to get an emotional foot on the ground again.

This is a very practical guide: Pet Owners Anxiety - Practical Tips For Sufferers and For Supporters

How to work out what is truly in your heart to help you to not feel so overwhelmed:
Operation, Terminal Care or Euthanasia? - Helpful Questions to Ask Ahead or in Hindsight

How you can make the most of your time with Zoe in a contructive way:
A Practical and Sensitive Guide to Dying, Terminal Illness and Euthanasia in Guinea Pigs
Caring for Older Piggies and Facing the End - A practical and supportive information collection

Enrichment Ideas for Guinea Pigs

My thoughts are with you. We continue to be there for you.

PS: It may be that Zoe has a build up of fluid in her body cavity (heart failure) or some milder bloating. You sadly cannot prevent her body from closing down when her time has come but you can make the best of what little time remains and hang onto that as your rock in the heart of the storm.

 

[GuineaDobbin]

I had a panic attack when I realised my lovely girl Bumblebum was going to die fairly imminently. After the vet did the coup de grace (which was awful and put me off the procedure for a long time) I went outside carrying her and wept uncontrollably. I must have looked like quite the lunatic to anyone passing, but you cannot contain emotions like that.

You can prepare yourself somewhat for the death of a loved one, we are dissuaded from it in most western societies; but it does us a disservice to pretend such a natural and inevitable thing won't happen.

Wiebke's guides were immensely helpful to us. Having a plan ahead of time that you can follow is a basic, human comfort. If you do it enough, it becomes a ritual. We have had some rough years recently and we wouldn't have got through it without these strategies.

 

[tahnie]

BIG HUGS

I am so very sorry. Losing a beloved one is so very stressful and it can totally throw you, especially when the question comes at you out of the blue, and you find that you are not ready and cannot cope.

Having coming up to a 100 piggies passing through my life off and on over half a century and having had to say goodbye to about coming 80 of them, whether that is putting them to sleep (euthanasia), having them dying at home or finding them dead in the morning without warning, it is your first encounter with a loss that is one of the hardest.

I sincerely hope that the links below can help you. A lot of my own experiences or practical experiences with helping forum members have gone into these guides in order to make it easier for you when you come face to face with an impending loss, what you can do, how you can work out what is in your heart of hearts so you feel less overwhelmed when the time comes and what you can do in the meantime. I have tried to make them as practical and accessible as possible.

There is a surprising amount of life and love still to be had, which you can carry on through your life in your precious special memories.

My most special piggy of all, Minx, lived 20 years ago but she still comes to me to play with me in the garden when I am in a scan with my incurable stage 4 cancer and brain tumour, and still has the magic to make me come out of the scan smiling - that is the enduring power of love.

These are the kind of truly lasting memories you still have time to create in order to be able to warm the cold fingers of your soul at years down the line because you will only lose Zoe completely if you throw your memories of her away and refuse to revisit because you are afraid of the pain.

It is going to be very painful for a while to think of her and no longer having her in your life like it was with my Minx, but Zoe can after that become your beacon for new love and new paths - because there will be those again for you when you are open for them and wherever you go. And she can become your own beacon of light in the darkest of times because you have that special love to bridge time and space with that love and those memories that never die in your heart.

Right now are the golden days in which you can make the most of it because love transcends time. Focus on how you can cherish those precious moments with her. Your grieving process is running underneath it all but it is hopefully not going to drown you the next time round.

Here are the guides that will hopefully help you to get an emotional foot on the ground again.

This is a very practical guide: Pet Owners Anxiety - Practical Tips For Sufferers and For Supporters

How to work out what is truly in your heart to help you to not feel so overwhelmed:
Operation, Terminal Care or Euthanasia? - Helpful Questions to Ask Ahead or in Hindsight

How you can make the most of your time with Zoe in a contructive way:
A Practical and Sensitive Guide to Dying, Terminal Illness and Euthanasia in Guinea Pigs
Caring for Older Piggies and Facing the End - A practical and supportive information collection

Enrichment Ideas for Guinea Pigs

My thoughts are with you. We continue to be there for you.

PS: It may be that Zoe has a build up of fluid in her body cavity (heart failure) or some milder bloating. You sadly cannot prevent her body from closing down when her time has come but you can make the best of what little time remains and hang onto that as your rock in the heart of the storm.

Sending you so much light and so much love. That is a wonderful responce you sound like a wonderful person. Minx sounds beautiful. I'm so glad you get visits. Love love love.

 

[tahnie]

Everyone - ZOE IS OKAY! had a check up to cure my anxiety over her, shes fine!! I was told she could live a few months more or even a year! Swelling looks down and she is playing and eating and running jumping back to herself COMPLETELY. it was a health scare, and the vet relieved my anxiety and gave me permission to relax. For the time being, Zoe is herself again, so I'm myself again. For now anyway! Was a tough week last week and emotions so up and down before the check up today, yesterday, i cried at a business lunch and nearly threw up.

THANK YOU AND GD BLESS YOU ALL will speak in future thanks for all your kind words and support. For now, its happy

I absolutely understand. I very recently lost my beautiful, dramatic Mischievous Master Boris to satin syndrome. Watching the deterioration of our loved piggies is it's own kind of grieving, especially when they still have moments of being at their happiest.
Big sexy rumbles and a smile for you from Dignified Sir George x
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Gorgeous

 

[tahnie]

Hi little Zoe, is nearly 6. She has had such a health scare i thought she needed to be put down last week, vet heard my concern and agreed. I had a panick attack (i have never had one) and felt like i needed hospitalisation at one point. THANK GD he changed his mind and said , you could give her 24 more hours and see how she goes and up the pain meds. I bought her "last meal", came home to her WHEEKING which she hasnt done in ages. I went from complete devastation to complete relief. She hasnt been crying. She has been happy. Started eating pellets even! Anyeay, she has "death swelling" though now, my previous queen Zara had the swelling and died a week later. I have had such up and down conflicting up and down emotions. Its crazy to me that i had the grief of what i thought was a forever goodbye, her final day, thinking was completely over, to now feeling intense worry about worrying about her dyeing at a later time ..(her swelling which i cant cope with, i know its bad situation.) if you know what i mean how weird the sitch is. I am crying in public every day, my fault for talking about her at uni, i thought i could. But discussing it made me distraught, so best i shut up. Anyway, i need closure so will go to vet and find out the truth as i need confirmation and i need to know...i guess we will x ray her and i will hear the bad news...
Anyway, the change in emotions to know worrying everyday in agony. I know the only thing that will help is moving back overseas. Like do you know what i mean, grieving the lsst day i thought, to now grieving everyday in worry and prolonging the agony.
I dont want guinea pig medical advice plesse it will distress me, i will hear it from the vet tomorrow. Just wanted to discuss in a guineanpig forum with targeted guinea pig lovers that will understand the pain, opposed to everyone else in my life who doesnt understand or get it, which is frustrating, my love for my guinea. Thanks x

Everyone - ZOE IS OKAY! had a check up to cure my anxiety over her, shes fine!! I was told she could live a few months more or even a year! Swelling looks down and she is playing and eating and running jumping back to herself COMPLETELY. it was a health scare, and the vet relieved my anxiety and gave me permission to relax. For the time being, Zoe is herself again, so I'm myself again. For now anyway! Was a tough week last week and emotions so up and down before the check up today, yesterday, i cried at a business lunch and nearly threw up.

THANK YOU AND GD BLESS YOU ALL will speak in future thanks for all your kind words and support. For now, its happy

 

[Wiebke]

Everyone - ZOE IS OKAY! had a check up to cure my anxiety over her, shes fine! I was told she could live a few months more or even a year! Swelling looks down and she is playing and eating and running jumping back to herself COMPLETELY. it was a health scare, and the vet relieved my anxiety and gave me permission to relax. For the time being, Zoe is herself again, so I'm myself again. For now anyway! Was a tough week last week and emotions so up and down before the check up today, yesterday, i cried at a business lunch and nearly threw up.

THANK YOU AND GD BLESS YOU ALL will speak in future thanks for all your kind words and support. For now, its happy

That is wonderful news. Enjoy your time with her and make some special lasting memories.

 

[Wiebke]

Sending you so much light and so much love. That is a wonderful responce you sound like a wonderful person. Minx sounds beautiful. I'm so glad you get visits. Love love love.

Thank you.

Here is my write up of my time with Minx (who dates back to before I joined the forum). I only had her for 3 years but every day with her I felt blessed and couldn't wait for what she would be up to... There would never be another like her for me, and I would not go and spoil it all by recapturing it. Instead I started my large Tribe group journey, which has taken me into a totally new direction and has brought its own and very different rewards.
Minx: It Is 10 Years Today...

Just try to create your own special and lasting memories with Zoe and cherish every day with her more consciously. Then, when the end comes, you have this wonderful jar full of sparkly reminders with her and do not feel so overwhelmed. I like to think of my past piggies as my little furry guardian angels who have helped me to learn so much about them and with their legacy help me look after my current crowd and learn even more... But they are all always with me, whether they are tangible and visible or not.

You will never lose Zoe completely but cherish your time with her while she lives and make it count.

 

[fluffysal]

I'm so happy for you

 

[Merab]

What wonderful news

 

[CTWC]

Fantastic news I'm so pleased for you.
Relax and enjoy every moment