I asked a reasonable question. If you thought it tactless can I, politely, ask how you would phrase the question?
So far this year I have had 6 pigs of my own die and another 6 that were here as patients. I am always prepared to answer any question, however it is put to me, in whatever way, even if I am being criticised. Only by doing this can any of us advance our knowledge.
I can sympathise with you in your loss. No, it doesn't get any easier, any death is a unique event and, as such, brings with it new emotions.