Thank you so much for your kind words. At the vet, they found large tumor in either her bladder or her uterus I did decide to put her to sleep. I miss her so much, but at least now she’s not in pain
BIG HUGS
I am so very sorry.
Sometimes, sending a cherished one gently to the Rainbow Bridge is the only option and the last, most loving but also most heartbreaking gift we can make them to cut short a slower journey in pain. We never make this choice easily, but we'd rather bear a greater burden of soul-searching, guilt and grief in order to spare those we love any unnecessary suffering. You have done absolutely the right thing for your beautiful girl.
Please try to be kind with yourself in the coming days as you go through the grieving process. Give yourself space and time to not be OK for some days.
The stage where you question and doubt yourself is normal human species behaviour since we are wired to reflect everything upon ourselves in a negative way - and euthanasia is the ultimate and most extreme choice we can or - like in your case - ever have to make for a beloved pet of ours.
You get your doubts, intense soul searching, guilt and feelings of loss the stronger the more traumatic and sudden the circumstances have been but also the more you care about somebody. They are the other side of the same coin called love. Like darkness makes light shine so much brighter, our grieving makes the light of our love shine brighter - but sadly not less painful to bear initially.
Has your girl a companion? Here is what you can do for them. They will have known better than you just how ill your beloved lady was.
Looking After a Bereaved Guinea Pig
Make sure that you fill the physical void with a picture or a plant. It can also help to get a bowl and a couple of bags of marbles where you put a marble in the bowl everytime the sense of loss gets overwhelming. A pot with plant soil and a pack of robust seeds, like sunflower, will also serve
the same purpose of helping to acknowledge that void and to fill it with a gesture.
This guide here talks you through the grieving process, which is much more overwhelming, unexpected and complex than you would expect but it also contains more tips about what you can do for yourself. I have tried to include as wide a range of things for all senses and types of how you can express your emotions, give them their space to set them free since we are all different to allow us to give space to them and help ourselves to process them over time as they gradually change.
Human Bereavement: Grieving, Processing and Support Links for Guinea Pig Owners and Their Children
Please bookmark this your ongoing support thread so you can access it easily at any time. Since we are not part of social media we can run personalised support threads for as long as they are needed, for moral support during your grieving journey but also for all those little and larger concerns and questions that inevitably come up.
Our forum is UK based, with members from all over the world. Our guide links may help to give you instant access to information you may need, especially with a marked difference in time zones when your day is falling into our UK downtime and in emergency situations. They can also provide more detailed information than we can mention in a post.
Here is the access link to our comprehensive information collection (for bookmarking):
Comprehensive Owners' Practical and Supportive Information Collection
We have got a Rainbow Bridge section which is here for all who would like to post a tribute for their beloved ones at any time during or after the end of the grieving process. We do however respect those of us who do find it too difficult a space to go there, so there is no obligation; it's just an option for those who find it helpful to express their love and their loss in a more tangible and way.
Rainbow Bridge Pets