HUGS
I am very sorry but I hope that a lot is starting to make sense for you and you feel more in control and more yourself once you can sort out what is what, wrap your head around it and develop some more targeted strategies - and when to just accept who you are and no longer starting to fight yourself. Like all things - different means that your brain works differently compared to many other people; it gives you strengths on which you can build and not just weaknesses. It will also help those around you.
But it can be overwhelming at first when the diagnosis comes from a very unexpected angle and you don't know anymore exactly who you are and what it really means in terms of practical life.
Accepting that was I a lot more autistic than I suspected I was when found that fact out the hard way in hospital has certainly helped me through my worst case scenario cancer diagnosis and tap into my strength instead of spending energy into 'fitting in'. I am a lot more in myself; I am just me and do things my very own way - even if it is not at all what others expect from somebody with a broken hip, a brain tumour and terminal cancer. I call it my second life. And after spending a life trying to play by the rules, I have found out that I am born a rule breaker and that I can achieve a lot more this way.
I hope that you can find your true self and learn to grow into this new self to take strength from being more together as a person, appreciating your strong sides and building on them.
Have you seen this installment from Chris Packham's series about autism and other related neurodiverse issues? I've linked the ADHD one for BBC i-player below. Personally, I have found the whole series rather interesting and not just because of my personal connection.
You may not find yourself necessarily fully reflected in any of the various personalities featured or you may have plenty of moments with totally speak to you.
I certainly didn't vibe with the autistic people featured in this installments about autism but nevertheless there were aspects mentioned that resonated strongly with me, like some of my little quirks and my sensory overload issues in hospital and why I just can't fall asleep with music. But also explaining some things (by far not all of them) about how I think as an autistic person
Anyway, I hope this can be a bit of a getting a foot in the door moment for you when you see people with ADHD talking about their life before the diagnosis and with the diagnosis. I sincerely hope that it gives you a kind of feeling of belonging and that there are really people out there who totally understand where you are coming from. We are all unique - and even more so with the huge variety of being neurodiverse but it also makes each of us special because we can bring something to life and to society that gives it a wider base if we need to develop into a new direction. I am more autistic than ADHD but both my brother and my husband are more ADHD than autistic.
Inside Our Minds - Inside Our ADHD Minds
it's helping her to trust me for sure. Not doing it too often because of the sugars though!
it's funny when you have wrappers from your stuff and you try to explain that it isn't for them!
I forget dates and times almost instantly and have to really work at keeping track of things. But this is my brain and I can't change it. The intense focus thing is nice for escapism and also to get my brain working smoothly. Going from one task to another can be difficult.
I'll absolutely look at the link as I'm always fascinated by how other people with adhd relate and see things as well
